Expansion

The passion for knowledge and wisdom is insatiable! Read read read, churn churn churn...and feeling helpless that I cannot ingest and digest everything all at once!

What for this expansion? What drives this quest? Truth is at the core. I have undoubtedly had what I am seeking now with such gusto. Everything seems familiar and natural. And yet, its not outside. When I went into silence, the essence was there... waiting calmly.

The desire to be complete and full... right now... its intense. And yet, it cannot be achieved by reading alone. In fact, it cannot be achieved by reading at all. He says, forget all that you have read and focus on me. I teach you the essence of it all.

The quest for more has had me in its grip today. Its very tempting to know more. Just a little more. Just one book a day... today it was philosophy and about traditions in society...

Actually this too is lust. Intense desire. It is not normal. It is not balanced. It is disempowering... how counter-intuitive. Now, to get back to the seed stage in a second.

56 Areas of Improvement

Half an hour of deeper than usual introspection yielded 56 varieties of food for thought...areas of improvement.

Each time I check, I find some things that are way better than I expected, some things that are just as I expected and some things that are way worse than I expected.

Just watching the shortcomings becoming visible in full flow...is an experience in itself. Felt calm... and lighter at the end of it. But am keenly aware that knowledge of the shortcoming is not equal to having addressed it with the mastery of a corresponding virtue or power... i've made that mistake too often.

Virtues are sources of power

Every virtue when valued and lived becomes a power. It changes situations, changes people, achieves that which is not possible without exercising this virtue as a power.

The Four Keywords

1. Introversion - To look inside to find out the meaning of what is outside
2. Concentration - To focus on what is relevant and actionable
3. Determination - To follow through the change process to make it sustainable
4. Success - The natural outcome of the above steps

Appreciating beauty

I saw so much beauty in the last few days... in people and places

• Amazing sense of humour... the ability to highlight multiple perspectives of any situation, keen sense of observation, almost mono acting multiple roles including the sharing of God's thoughts.
• Love for God from the heart - these mothers have such depth of connection that it takes every listener beyond as they narrate the stories. Language is no barrier. Love for God is universal
• A passion for knowledge in its purest, unadulterated for - Seeking incessantly to gain clarification, sharing profound perspectives on the thoughts offered, incredibly appreciative based on elevated self respect and regard for others.
• Instant Surrender - transforming completely overnight before people can understand what's going on. Instant connection, powerful decision and permanent change. Wow.
• Easy connection with universal eternal truths despite vivid diversity of backgrounds.
• Introspection, reflection, honesty and fearlessness.

Kuwait has been an interesting chapter.

Surrender

When there is plenty of change on the anvil, when there is chaos because of many divergent opinions, when there is pulls from many sides... a surrendered intellect stays blissful. At the bottom of the sea, it is always calm. The waves are always superficial and cannot shake a surrendered intellect.

It is absolutely beautiful!

Ownership/Responsibility

'When service is thrusted upon'... unplanned events need to be handled all of a sudden...who is the owner?

If no one takes ownership of service, who is responsible? If everyone does their own thing and I am waiting for directions until the last minute, is it appropriate? Is ownership taken or given? Can I assume someone else will handle it? Is it really wise to leave things without checking till the last minute...because I was not asked to... and then to run around and get the pending things done because there are no owners for them? Worse, should I watch on detachedly (with apathy actually) as things go haywire? [My bias seems to be obvious in the value judgements embedded in the sentences. This is not accurate thinking.]

If I take ownership without being asked, that is not appropriate. If I keep quiet and watch detachedly... until its nearly too late, that is not ok either. This is also an aspect of self mastery.

Everything seems to flow out of maturity. When the intellect is clear and the powers of discrimination and judgement are functioning well, I just know what is appropriate when. 

Head and Heart

First it was the head. The habit of thinking through and making decisions. Command and control. Feelings are silly. Stay powerful. Logic and rationalism reign.

Then it was the heart. Intuition is far more powerful. Logic has limitations. Trust your instincts and all will work out to be the best. Much better than logic can ever muster. God has a better plan for you than your intellect can conceive. Go with the flow. Don't think!

And then there was confusion. When the intellect abandons its seat, Maya takes over seamlessly. Thoughts go wayward. The intellect is confused, frustrated... this is not really the promise of God's better plan... but then it has abdicated its responsibilities...and must keep quiet. Old habits take over thoughts, words and actions...the senses declare independence. The intellect watches on horrified... not knowing what to do.

'What are my rights and responsibilities? When must I be a master, when must I be a child?' The intellect is confused. Hmmm.

Check and change. As long as things are within Shrimat, within the boundaries of the most elevated code of conduct, everything is fine. Anytime the code of conduct is transgressed, the intellect should swing into action and take control. Check and change. Freedom comes with responsibility.

'How do I know when to check...and when to let loose?'
You will know, because you will begin to feel uneasy...
When thoughts, words and deeds are within Shrimat, there is joy, there is peace, there is love...there is contentment.

Very Strange

The moment I clearly identify what I really should be doing, I lose all interest in doing it even though I might have been doing it (and enjoying it) unknowingly earlier. Suddenly there is no more motivation to follow through.

Is this rebelliousness? I'm not sure.

The element of fun seems to be in unraveling the mystery... and in the discovery of a truth and arriving at a moment of clarity... but not in using the insight and arriving at the desired 'goal'.

Goals seem to motivate for very short durations. Once I know what to do, I'd rather figure out what else to do! 

Incidentally this pattern has been there for a long while. The staple work area gets implemented more with a sense of duty (even though there is enjoyment) than with genuine passion. Any 'above and beyond' or intermittent projects always fascinate and produce dramatic results due to higher focus and follow through.

The book with the most valuable insights is kept aside to be read later in-depth... and 'meanwhile let me mine all the insights from other books.' Sounds so silly, but its so real! What a strange personality trait!

Identity drives Experience

I am a soul - eternal, peaceful, loveful, knowledgeful, joyful, powerful and pure.

Awareness of Identity brings about experiences of my natural qualities.

I am eternal => Peace
I wonder at life => Happiness
I admire the beauty of roles => Love
I see the big picture => Knowledge
I retain awareness => Power
I am bodiless => Purity

Purity

Purity is Truth.
Impurity is mixture...untruth.
Honesty allows me to check and change and arrive at Purity.

The result is Freedom.

Songs of love

When the heart sings, the words flow and everything is smooth. It is all so easy and spontaneous. Trying to write poetry as a task is not necessarily as smooth or even close in terms of quality.

Writing from the heart (and singing from the heart) touches hearts.

Baba you are truly the doer and inspirer...touching the intellect to make sure the right thing is done... and yet in such an unobtrusive way. Lovely.

Hours and hours

I have spent hours and hours (and hours and hours) trying to figure out myself. Especially the last two days have been amazingly intense. Its like being on neutral and slamming the 'pedal to the metal'. Lots of revving and no movement.

I have probably invested more time in introspection than in any other thing in the last 14 years (including any office work or service project)... this humming is constant in my life.

So what is the outcome? I really don't know. Lots of glimpses of glory. Lots more understanding. Sometimes it all seems so simple and elegant. At other times ever so complicated.

And he says - these are such childhood toys. Go beyond! Shine forth and transform the world! You are the greatest...

Silence is truly the key. Let me go back into it now...

Wants

I want nothing.

Thus spake I. And then filled two pages in the journal on what I truly want to do.
And then again, I truly want nothing in a limited sense...

I am an iceberg... this life is the proverbial tip. Understanding myself fully is not like visiting aunty's home...

At the brink

Today I have access to everything, everyone I need... to do be and have whatever I want. And yet, at the brink of success I stop.

Ultimately this chapter will end... and I will leave this body. What purpose would I have served? What purpose has anyone served thus far?

This question is more useful...it gives a bigger picture view than being caught up in the detailed analysis...

15000 Hours

I have had the privilege of being in God's personal company for at least 15000 hours. I have been loved, taught, mentored, moulded, guided, cajoled, teased, tempted, provoked, challenged, invoked into the path of self improvement.

And today I was asking myself yet again, pondering deeply... restlessly... what is it that I must really focus on? What truly is my highest purpose?

How could I be so blind? Truly, Baba's task is unfathomable.

Wherever I go...

Wherever I go, I meet myself.

Evergreen Homework

On 20th October, He shared the most profound wisdom with so much love and sweetness... he said many things that fascinated me. But the following just grips me:

"So, who are the beloved ones? The ones who follow the father. And it is very, very, very easy to follow. It is not difficult at all. If you follow in just one aspect, you will easily be following in all other aspects. It is just one line that the Father reminds you of every day. You remember that, do you not? Consider yourself to be a soul and remember Me, your Father."

So here is a goal that I am setting myself to master this very, very, very easy (but ever so slippery if I don't pay attention) homework.

Goal:

By November 15, 2008, I will have mastery on attaining powerful bodiless stage and unbroken, loving, powerful remembrance of Baba for at least sixty seconds at a time, taking less than one second to reach that stage each time.

Keywords:

• Bodiless: Distinct experience of being separate from the body, resulting in the whole body being relaxed and refreshed.
• Remembrance of Baba: Experiencing Baba's love and power and feeling energized at the end of yoga

Mastery Parameters:

1. Quality of bodiless stage - distinct experience of being separate from body resulting in whole body being relaxed and refreshed
2. Quality of remembrance - Experiencing Baba's love and power and feeling energized at the end of yoga
3. Duration of connection - quality maintained unbroken for at least one minute
4. Speed of connection - less than one second to reach the desired quality of connection

NOTE on Mastery:
Emphasis is on getting the first two parameters while measuring the next two parameters over time.

Milestones:

1. Experience powerful bodiless stage [at least once per day, no matter how long it takes or lasts]
2. Experience loving powerful remembrance [at least once per day, no matter how long it takes or lasts]
3. Experience mastery parameters 1, 2 & 3 [does not matter how long it takes to get there]
4. Reach all mastery parameters [1, 2, 3 & 4] at Amritvela
5. Reach all mastery parameters 8 times a day [any convenient time]
6. Reach all mastery parameters at will during free time.
7. Reach all mastery parameters in between busy work
8. Reach all mastery parameters in the midst of difficult or challenging circumstances

Nice to have:

Reach all mastery paramters maintained for 45 minutes at Amritvela

Always Perfect

When God is at the helm, everything is perfect. In accordance to one's growth needs. If I wait and watch how the drama unfolds, it is entertaining. There is constant newness.

There will be opportunities to do what I have always done or to just go with the flow with a fresh view on everything. Actually, everything is always fresh as the drama unfolds. Constantly new. When I stay in the present, it makes me alert and agile. It also keeps me relaxed and at ease.

When God is not around to remind me that everything is perfect, I strive and struggle. I want to control things and force things to happen in a particular way.

The awareness of 'Drama' is applicable while looking at the past - immediate or distant. Life presents itself in the present and when I have the tools of knowledge I can do whatever I want with it...thereby creating my future.

I can make the future just like the past by doing just what I have always done. Or I can have a brand new future by exercising different choices. But whatever I do, is accurate in the drama. It's a result of all the forces in play and there could not have been an alternative course of action given the scheme of things.

Everything is always perfect.

God is the Greatest

I met him. He is the Ocean of Love. He is the Ocean of Sweetness. He is the wisest of all. He made me experience fullness. He demonstrated that he knows me. He directly demonstrated whatever he recommended me to do.

'Let your words be like a shower of flowers...'

And...truly divine love...so fulfilling.

All OK

Everything fits. It's all accurate. It's better than the best made plans. The different situations are so clearly opportunities that help me discover myself in my full glory...as a child of God.

The End of Ego

End of the roving eye and quiet observations; Smart comments and witty repartees; listening beyond need; wanting to know and to tell...

Solitude vs Being in the thick of things

Solitude is lovely and has always been a favourite. Yet after all the rush of service when suddenly, unexpectedly there was nothing to do, it was uncomfortable at first. Like 'being in demand' and 'lack of time to serve everyone' to suddenly 'being left out'. It is so funny in retrospect. Ego results in foolish behaviour.

It was a short spell but insightful. Solitude reigns again.

Original quality

Lightness has remained throughout (this life...maybe the cycle?)but there have been many instances where I was deeply challenged, and the stage was down.

Idealism is another thing that's certainly lasted.

Belief and Vision

I do not believe in struggle. I effortlessly soar beyond the clouds. I AM the Sun. I dispel darkness through my radiant presence.

The Little bird's dilemma

Once upon a time a little bird wanted to swallow the ocean. It had been thirsty and found bliss by quenching its thirst from a rare rain in the desert. It sought the source...and found the clouds...it sought the source of the clouds...and reached the ocean.

'I have found the Ocean!' he declared. 'I want to have all of it now!'

But it was not sweet. It was salty and there was just too much of it.

Past is past

Thick dark clouds.
Thunder and lightning.
Struggling to win.
Giving up.
Silence.
Quiet.
Gentle review of life.
Strange sense of contentment.

I have put in my best. I have been sincere. I have passed many times and yet failed many times. There has been tremendous progress. This life has rendered useful service. Could it have been better? Not really... not for me...even though in the past, in my heart idealism has reigned constantly and the gap between errant reality and the constant ideal has caused much angst.

Today, I am contented. I give myself the certificate of contentment. I feel that my lokik and alokik families would also give me the certificate as of today. That this one has been sincere and well meaning... and has been a good family member. They will note that I am far from perfect, perhaps with many areas where I could have been better and done better... but they will say that he has been a good individual...sincere and well meaning. Would God give me the certificate of contentment? For honesty, yes. For the homework, no.

If I die today, this life would not have been in vain.

What would the future be like if I die today? Would there be remorse that my role has thus been fixed in a sub-optimal manner? No. I think there would not be any remorse. I accept my part with its pluses and minuses, the efforts put in were sincere and I did get sidetracked each time and well, I have the corresponding results. It is all fine. All ok.

So as on today, all of the past is ok and put firmly in the past.

Tomorrow is a fresh start. A new opportunity. A new life. I offer it to God to fashion it as he pleases.

Karmic accounts

It is humbling to witness the power of karmic settlements. Watching people who had been spiritually rich, vibrant and powerful breaking down into helplessness and misery... being incapacitated and unable... it is quite a sight.

And yet souls don't learn the lesson. Some will irritated with them. Some make fun of them. Some others are dismissive and rudely brush them aside.

Dadi Kumarka had said...'Nothing is as it seems. No one is as they seem. And no two days are the same.' Such profound words... and they ring with even more meaning in this context.

And from John Donne, 'Never send to know for whom the bells tolls... it tolls for thee'

Emotional connection

When I read/hear/see something that I have experienced before, it strikes an emotional chord within and I connect with it. I relive it with this new experience - It does not matter at all whether I like it or not.

When there is interest in bringing about behavioural changes, old experiences pose the most interesting challenge. Any amount of superficial disinterest or even ignoring it at that time doesn't fool the sanskars/sub-conscious. It could be the most trivial of interests to the strongest of habits. And lo, it appears in the dreams and reveries or those moments when I am not using the intellect... or even when I see anything remotely related.

To bring about fundamental changes, I need to recognize and accept the current emotional connection and move forward instantly and strongly in the direction of my current choice. A new emotional bond needs to be set in place...

But that's still superficial. At a deeper level, churning on what is really required and following up with powerful yoga is critical to alter the sanskars.

Self Protection to Self Esteem

There is a time when there is resistance to feedback. The tendency is to defend myself, to justify my actions, to explain the circumstances that lead to the particular 'less than perfect' behaviour.

This phase is that of 'self-protection'. There is an undergrowth of pain that comes with ego. And its not easy to uproot. Anything that threatens the ego is looked at with fear and/or resentment.

In this phase, love takes the form of possessiveness. Actions are forceful rather than mature and dignified. 'Service' in this mode is pushy and imposing .Or it could be callous -'Take it or leave it - It's your funeral' instead of humbly offering to benefit the other while respecting the other's choice. The diversity of views that souls have at this point in time is incredible.

Once the soul parts with ego, there is freedom. There is self respect. There is fearlessness. There is strength. There is willingness to change and to improve. There is love and appreciation for other views. There is love for Truth rather than 'false politeness'. There is confidence on one's own unshakeable foundation. There is trust in God and in one's own fortune.

Fresh, frank and forthright feedback is eagerly sought and gratefully welcomed as an opportunity to relook at the self and improve in every way possible.

On the path to egolessness, the initial phase is to build on one's own strengths. This builds self-confidence and boosts self-esteem. Any look at weaknesses is debilitating. The next phase is to uproot weaknesses and shortcomings so that the original purity of the self can radiate in all directions. Focus on strengths at this stage is an invitation to ego and/or complacence. The next phase is that of sublimation where there is gratitude to God for everything. Everything is easy and natural - for it is God who is at the helm. This is the final stage. The post-final stage is the constant awareness of one's natural beauty... this is a natural stage that carries forward beyond the end of time...

Things still unclear

There are many things that are still unclear to me. By the time I get a satisfactory grip on them, they go beyond comprehension once more. These include topics such as -

• Who am I really?
• Who is God?
• What is nature?
• What is life?
• What's going on here?

And then I sense Baba beside me... and feel at rest. There is trust... he will navigate me through the muddled waters. My guide is here. And this is the time of metamorphosis.

What's clear to me

I've figured out some things.

• I am more fortunate than I can possibly comprehend.
• All four subjects are critical for self development and the combination brings about holistic development.
• I am rather disinterested in sight seeing. While I appreciate the beauty of nature and feel that many things are interesting, all said and done, sitting in a corner and exploring myself in silence is any day more enjoyable.
• I am much further ahead in purusharth than I thought - in some areas - and much further behind in purusharth in many other areas.
• Baba loves me so much and is ever ready to help me the moment I dig deeper. I have an amazingly dull intellect and am unable to seize the opportunities more often and really dig into purusharth. [This is not called honesty or modesty or self-deprecation etc... but more of awareness of the huge gap between where Baba's vision for me is and where I currently am]
• Nothing comes for free but there are opportunities galore for the soul who is honest and sincere and really wants to improve.
• This family is wonderful. Life is wonderful.
• The time to really benefit from the confluence age is NOW.

Engaged to myself

As I watched myself going through the recent events quite often I found myself perplexed. There was much to learn and appreciate... and yet I felt oddly very disinterested as well. It was all nice. I felt at home at each place. Yet as I explored myself, I found that the newness each place offered opened up a new unexplored area within myself.  Sometimes I felt surprised by how well I was doing in terms of spiritual efforts and yet at many times I felt surprised by how little I knew of myself.

It was like (I suppose) getting engaged to myself. Wherever I went, I was constantly watching myself - how I was taking things, how I behaved in different situations, what I liked and what I tended to ignore and where I got caught up...it was getting to know myself more intimately.

Goodbye ordinariness

Today it struck home. I have taken so much from Baba. I have had the incredible privilege of personal sustenance. He has guided me, loved me, taught me, inspired me, sustained me, nurtured me, empowered me, fulfilled me... he has given me this life.

If I use my time, energy, resources... everything in a worthwhile way, in an elevated way, in an unlimited way, as per his directions... his personal sustenance has been worthwhile.

If I use my time or any resource in an ordinary way (let alone a negative way), in a casual way...it means I have not truly recognized him. It means I have not truly recognized myself. It means I have not truly recognized the present time. It means I do not have due regard... It means his time and effort on me is yet to bear fruit. It means that I have to do further groundwork before his sustenance bears fruit. It means I have limited the unlimited one.

This is not the time to be ordinary. This is the time to be a worthy child. This is the time to reveal God. And he will be revealed when I become a practical example of his teachings. And then everyone will see...this is not a human being. This is God's work of art. God's masterpiece.

Baba... I am yours.

Joy of Service

There is joy in each form of service. Helping out with the computers. With the dishes. With sharing an insight or two. But the greatest joy is in serving souls to connect to their own greatness and to the source of all virtues - God.

It is a joy to watch as someone realizes how beautiful they are. It is a joy to watch when a soul starts to relax and be free from worries. It is a joy to watch when a soul is able to connect to its father... the ocean of love.

Actually joy is not the word. It is deeply fulfilling when our presence has made a beautiful difference in another soul's life. God has used me as an instrument. My existence has been worthwhile. My purpose has been fulfilled.

Static

Endless mind chatter. About all sorts of things. Pizzas. Light talk in Gujarati. Weather. The lanes and bylanes of Oxford. Ride in the car. Nice ambience in that other centre... No pull towards anything... like sorting out the jumble of clothes that have been washed and dried and need to be ironed now...

Unless the intellect is alert and active and exercises authority, ordinariness slips in. Then can negativity be far behind? The mind needs an agenda. The intellect needs to set it.

Influence and Empowerment

Witnessed an excellent workshop by [well, does the name matter? To whom? Why? Hmm...]. The speaker presented the content very simply and shared half the answers and provided so much context that the audience continuously stayed engaged and responded with the missing answers.

'We do not have control over many things. But we can have influence over them. In fact, exercising that influence to empower the other [person, situation, thing] may very well be our responsibility.'

Very nice indeed.

Achievement of relaxation

Was put on a biofeedback machine. 'Relaxed quickly and easily and achieved demonstrated success!' How paradoxical! The achievement paradigm is deeply ingrained. Acknowledgement of being an embodiment spiritual qualities is still theoretical... in spite of having many experiences that provide evidence.

Detached and Connected

Opportunities to watch the self and catch the self in action are endless.

When put in a small gathering of like minded souls who are yet to be introduced, there is the tendency to be friendly and connected and engage in small talk. There are the routine gentle questions that help connect with the other and offer a chance to appreciate the other well. The content is nearly pointless... but the intent could be noble and appreciative. It could also be driven by a need to feel good and nice through the interaction. Maybe the motivation could subtly be 'oh yes, so and so said this and that when we met then and there...'

There is also the opportunity to just stay silent, loving and appreciative. Wishing others well without having the need to know and engage. Except when there is an opportunity to make a substantial contribution by engaging through words.

It's not straightforward. There are situations that come where you feel you can 'add value' by offering insights or special prior knowledge about similar situations... that 'Aha, I know, its actually this way...' and yet the value addition may be quite trivial.

Detachment and connectedness. Both invaluable. The former makes the latter more beautiful.

Starting from Scratch

Every now and then there is a need to take a fresh look at everything.

• Who am I?
• What am I doing?
• Why?
• What is life all about?
• Who is God? Really?
• What's going on here?
• What is spirituality?
• What's my purpose in life?
• What do I know for sure?
• What do I not know for sure?

The Coolness coefficient

Just realized that there is something that can be called a 'coolness coefficient'. Its directly related to an individual's personality. Whatever we do, whoever we are, we bring along our coolness coefficient.

Call it the 'wow factor' or the 'creativity bug'. Just like someone brings along their sense of quality or professionalism... there is a tendency to bring along the coolness coefficient.

Which means some people are surrounded by cool things to do or cool projects to implement, cool situations to be in, cool people to be with etc. while some others are surrounded by the boring and the drab... or the exciting and adventurous... or... whatever. We bring to life whatever we are.

And if we want to change our life, we need to work on changing ourselves. In this case... if we want our life to be more 'cool'... we need to become more 'cool'. In other words, enhance the coolness coefficient.

Strangely enough, 'trying to be' something/someone is counter productive. Instead, just 'being' in that state is more effective.

He takes care

Was feeling very uncomfortable. Time in rushing by and am stuck in ordinariness. And there is just no interest in 'the look here and see that,' yet time is swallowed up in paying attention to learning new irrelevant things. After amritvela decided to really set the focus.

Today's murli captured the whole sequence. What that feeling of being caught up is like, how to get out of it, what are the priorities...and what the effort is all about.

Diversity

Spent much time in observing differences in culture, lifestyle, behaviour between the different countries. Even felt a bit conscious from time to time about my strange/'out of place' attire even though no one else seemed to be bothered about it. There is plenty of diversity in the world... but what is my role in all of this?

It was a practical test for staying beyond and I did not pass. Exposure to new/unknown environments is a mine for discovering hidden shortcomings.

Hmm...

New and Old world

A lovely countryside with people endowed with health, wealth and good manners... all facilities and beautiful scenic locations...its like a new world in an old one.

The mind goes blank. There is appreciation... and then an attitude of a quiet witness. There is really nothing much to speak or share.

Saw many customs and traditions...rituals performed...devout life. So many souls, so many roles... it is indeed a grand drama of life.

Quality in action

Witnessed a public program at Global cooperation house... executed to near perfection. Many helping hands. Each one knowing the role very well. The timing, the delivery, the royalty, the grace, the seamless flow of many different events with each person pitching in at just the right pace.

The ground work was already complete. The fliers, forms, handouts, recordings, offerings, pre-cursors and follow ups...

The content was profound and yet simply delivered in 7 easy steps, each step consisting of information, commentary and silent experience. Each step was building on the previous one leading to the experience of contributing to world peace.

Very nice.

Swinging in the swing and 5 aspects of time

There is a tall tree and a lovely swing... and swinging on it gave an experience of what could be behind the phrase - swinging in the swing of bliss and happiness.

Gentle, powerful...and it was such lovely weather...someone said it's satyuga on earth right there.

This is such an interesting life.
One visit provided an experience across the cycle of time:

• The experience of 'being beyond' on the swing reminded of the golden age.
• The beautiful environs reminded of the silver age.
• The palace and the ornate arrangements reminded of the copper age.
• The insects, spider webs, the many signs telling people not to misbehave, the floods, resentment, atheism, big brother watching... remind of the iron age...
• Including God while seeing others in action was a reminder of this lovely confluence age.

Give and Take

[Post amritvela thoughts]

Lovely opportunity to observe, learn, imbibe. Yet after two days of much taking and some sharing, the realization is that this is not accurate. It simply is not the time to sit back and passively absorb. The opportunity becomes a distraction unless used appropriately.

At the present time giving automatically includes taking. There is very little time...  and it needs focus on the aim and nothing else but the aim.

[And what a beautiful verification of these feelings in Dadi's class and the murli today.]

Being myself

Who am I really? What a fortunate life!

There is no need to remind myself of any events or of interactions with people to learn from them. I already have everything...and He will clarify anything that may be needed as per the time.

Its time to just remain in the rich and powerful experience of being myself. Humility and Self respect are twins. Its so beautiful.

On self mastery

Simple, beautiful insights from Dadi Janki on self mastery.

Instruct the mind with authority - you belong to me... now be quiet, be patient. There is no need to think - how is this, why is that, in which way will something turn out...stay quiet. Everything is easy. There is no need to make it complicated.

Those in high positions keep a security guard near them. They don't meet just anyone. Keep elevated thoughts as your security guard. Do not allow just any thought to enter.

I need to keep looking at myself. What is the purpose of my life? What is the purpose for me, for my community, for the world? Around the world, people need peace...they need help. What am I doing about it? Do I just listen to the news and share the news or do I do something about it?

There are three bank accounts that are imperishable. One: effort making for the self and we develop deeper interest in progressing. Two: staying contented and making others contented - this earns blessings from all. Three: serving others from the heart - this accumulates in the account of charity.

Good example on how to use insights directly from the murli, applying to the given context based on the need, shared with love and good wishes. This is maturity. Very inspiring to see the close with a call to action.

What's really going on?

Thoughts reveal my nature. Well not really. They reveal my current nature.

There are noble thoughts that are generated by the intellect that has absorbed knowledge...they may even occur spontaneously based on prior repeated action. These seem 'artificial and contrived' at first glance.

Then there are thoughts that arise in full flow of their accord. These are driven by past experience, by choices based on what was considered useful or interesting in the short term but not necessarily beneficial in the long term. These seem natural as they are spontaneous.

When the 'awakened' intellect is fully alert, it amplifies, redirects or stops the spontaneous thoughts. When the intellect is 'tired', actions may take place before the intellect can register and assess the nature of thoughts and take appropriate and effective action.

Intellect driven change is time consuming and lots of hard work. Hard work at educating the intellect to be effective is necessary... but not sufficient to make changes at an emotional level so that it becomes sustainable (and 'natural').

There is a different approach that focuses just on emotional impact. Decide on any 'appropriate' course of action [alter existing habit or inculcate a new one]...and rely on various techniques that condition the neural network of the brain to respond in that way. This approach is based on research on how the brain works and how any behaviour can be altered quickly.

The challenge is that the second approach seldom has the wisdom to transcend mundane human wants. 

In an enlightened life, the intellect has faith based on knowledge and yoga based on love.  How does this come about?

When one really surrenders.This comes only with realization.

How to realize deeply enough to really surrender? Certainly not with intellectual and academic questioning. It needs subtlety. Otherwise the surrender is also theoretical... and is withdrawn pretty quick.

Hmm...

Key Learnings thus far

1. Recognize what I am passionate about (strangely this is not as easy as it sounds...)
2. Now is the time to do what I am passionate about...
3. I need to create time for myself. Nothing happens automatically. Each step of courage yields tremendous help.
4. Staying surrendered is liberating. Too much planning is challenging.
5. Constant balance of master and child needed.
6. Stay flexible and enjoy
7. Need to keep the compass handy. Its easy to lose direction amidst all the exciting opportunities that come by.
8. Check and change constantly
9. Document/Journal/Blog every key aspect
10. Murlis are the guiding light
11. Live in the realm of experiences
12. Build discipline to weed out old habits.
13. Restlessness is useful.  Go deeper and ponder. Realize the missing aspect and surge forward.
14. Holistic approach is essential (not optional)
15. Experience the stage of elevated self respect. My responsibility... my greatness....
16. Baba takes care of EVERYTHING. Just trust and move on...

Dadis live on Shrimat and follow father...not on personal whims and fancies. Everything has been tried and tested before...

Good vs Great

Good is normal. Good is habitual. Good is status quo. Good is expected. Good is the comfort zone. Good is easy. Good is addictive.

Great needs extra attention. Great is uncomfortable. Great rocks the boat. Great is risky. Great is newness.

After some time, great becomes good. The bar is raised higher. And then it starts again. Good is normal. Good is habitual...

Checking from Scratch

• Body consciousness, lust, anger, ego, greed, attachment... all are still lurking at various levels
• Starting to serve through the mind naturally from time to time
• Starting to detach from ordinariness
• Disinterest in ordinary conversations
• Detecting maya in advance
• Accepting differing views gracefully
• Still needing lot of introspection and pondering for the self. Little service. Little extra study.
• Time is flying by and there is little traction towards the lofty goal.
• Intellect is still dull. No doubt about that.
• Many unfinished projects
• Very little amounts of daily in-depth yoga
• Distracted from main goal of homework - caught up in random services, reading and contemplation
• Thinking > Talking > Action.
• Ate too much dry fruits. Almost thoughtlessly...maya deceives.
• Listening to much sage advice - appreciating but not following it.
• Not surrendered fully - still making alternate plans
• Talked and shared about attainments and things yet to be done. Keeping it incognito would have been so much better.
• Not going deep enough - still superficial
• Big goals and declarations - not following through fully.
• Taking initatives, involving others...then not following through fully.
• Re-prioritizing public goals and not informing in time
• Not sticking to commitments when they (ever so often) seem to be of lower priority than contemplation on basics of life
• Being hard to reach - saying no to random services unless its deemed essential
• Low impact thus far in transforming lives
• Ideas are shared with gusto but little sustainable change seen in the recipients...just a feel good factor for a short while
• Giving unsolicited advice with love...but probably not required
• Still justifying, displaying merit in personal action instead of maintaining powerful silence
• Still having preference for self-development (rather than in being and staying full)...not relying on one Baba
• I still don't know myself well inspite of all the introspection
• Reverence for God keeps fluctuating.
• Still superficial
• Slow implementation
• Too many interests... passionate about too many ideas...
• Got briefly tense and heavy about prioritizing the reading list! Too many things and too little time...
• Doubt - Is the vision too high to motivate accurate consistent action?
• Delight in observing how Baba is taking care of finances...magical.
• Questioning the power of silence
• my silent commands are not being obeyed in time.
• But then I withdraw the commands very quickly - I actually have no wants...
• But this is for service...
• So what? Stay free...
• What a long long way off from the final stage.
• Brief distraction during amritvela due to the muezzin's call... Will I be able to be bodiless in a second when there is chaos all around? Need much more practice...

Theory and Practice

Theoretically I have a right to be equal.
Practically I need the qualifications of being equal.

Closeness to the goal brings a totally different picture of reality...and faith...and trust...

Experienced being peace and purity... Real living is living as a child of God.

Rituals in Gyan

[A four year old article that still seems accurate]

We pride ourselves to be enlightened and rational beings who if need be, bravely defy socially accepted norms of behaviour. We decry superstition. We are always polite but firm in rejecting offers to eat food that does not match our strict standards of purity, cleanliness of the mind and the environs. We are willing to bear the social outrage at our decisions to lead a life of purity and define our own priorities in life. We are quick to spot the shallowness visible everywhere – how people often celebrate occasions such as festivals, birthdays, anniversaries etc without really being sincere.

And yet, rituals are the norm. Every now and then we catch ourselves going through a series of mindless actions. We find ourselves in quite amusing situations. For example: We may …

1. wake up in the early morning hours of nectar (Amrit Vela) to have the most powerful meditation and yet feel drowsy and have no experience of meditation.
2. want to control the traffic of our thoughts in the mind by observing periodic short “traffic control” times sincerely – and while religiously observing silence & stopping physical activity, we may forget to direct the mind to God or any particular focus.
3. like to start and end any activity with silent remembrance of God and yet while there is silence, at times there is no remembrance, just waiting alertly for someone to move their hands or legs thereby signaling the “end of the remembrance”.
4. offer food to God in an effort to give pure vibrations to the food so that it has a purifying effect on our body and mind … and yet find our mind wandering to more mundane pastures of work recently done or to be done.
5. attend spiritual class with full sincerity, understanding well that this is the only study that truly illuminate us souls and is critical for our self-development as a student of the supreme teacher. And yet we may catch ourselves nodding off, or paying attention to the “teacher’s” pronunciation and gestures more than the content of the talk. Sometimes we are concerned about how people ought to behave in class, sometimes alertly pay attention to who is entering or leaving class etc. Sometimes, we listen and even read without any value and therefore experience nothing other than having successfully completed another item to be done.
6. aim at doing ‘Service’ of humanity but forget to see what the intended audience is seeking. We sometimes proceed to ‘force’(though the word seems too harsh for this context) our own ideas and concepts on the trapped listeners. Interestingly, we may also not be following the ‘forcedly delivered’ idea or concept accurately.
7. use that wonderful greeting of peace ‘Om Shanti’ without the consciousness of ‘Om’ (i am a soul) or ‘Shanti’ (my nature is peace).
8. give or receive powerful ‘drishti’ (the soul conscious look that helps the receiver stabilize in soul consciousness and Godly remembrance), and all that happens is a blank yet focused gaze at the forehead of the giver/receiver of the ‘drishti’. Remembrance is cast aside and sometimes various wandering thoughts come by and sometimes thoughts of past interactions with the person in front flash by.

Certainly, there are many more examples that can be cited. Not all ‘rituals’ are performed by everyone… and certainly, all of us may perform these occasionally when we lose perspective and hurry through the ceremonies.

As long as actions, words, and – at the root level- thoughts go unmonitored, it is likely that some or the other ‘ritual’ will get inadvertently performed. A meaningful life and a joyful life are the results of a disciplined mind. The careful weeding out of the wasteful & negative thoughts and the intentional planting of noble, elevated thoughts – this is the process of disciplining the mind. This also ensures that only positive fruitful thoughts translate into corresponding actions.

This kind of wonderful gardening in the field of action, in the field of duty, is done by one who has a divine intellect; one who has realized the truth, and not just known it as a set of facts to be noted. A divine intellect that is full of wisdom applies itself to the work of cleansing the personality traits.

The result of such careful gardening and tender loving attention is a robust and healthy soul whose every thought bears fruit. Success follows every action. A life of constant bliss and peaceful equanimity arrives to stay. Liberation from bondages … liberation in Life… Ah freedom!

Follow Father

In performing actions, follow Father Brahma, and in your stage, follow the incorporeal Father Shiva. You do know how to follow, do you not? – Avyakt BapDada

As we go through the ever changing myriad situations that life brings forth, at times it seems like each of our challenges is unique and cannot really be understood by others. Everyone else’s situation seems relatively easy to handle. “If only there was a way to find out what is the best way out of my unique predicament…” is a common thought. No one likes a life of constant struggle. And yet is it really possible to handle our situations with grace and élan?

There is an old riddle that describes the way to make things simpler.

Question: How to make a line short without erasing any part of it?

Answer: Draw a longer line next to it.

Brahma Baba’s life story provides us that longer line. Brahma Baba offers us an example of how to handle the toughest problems easily on the basis of God’s knowledge. Brahma Baba set the standard on spiritual effort making. God used Brahma Baba as an instrument, as an example, as a demonstration of how to imbibe Godly teachings in practical life. Brahma Baba constantly moulded himself. He re-designed his entire life – his beliefs, his ideologies, his perception of himself, even the teachings that he had shared with all. As he discovered a truth, he was happily willing to forsake old ideas without much ado. His humility, surrender and faith made him a carefree emperor.

Baba encourages us to follow Brahma Baba in our day to day life. But how do we follow father if we have not met him in this life?

We are all actors and have played many roles. Let us, for a little while, consider that we are to enact the role of Brahma Baba. Let us consider each thought experiment below and check our own responses to the situation. Being in his shoes helps us understand his situation. Knowing how he handled it provides us with an accurate method. In comparison our current situation will seem easy to handle.

NOTE: To take full benefit of the following sequence of thought experiments, a prior reading of ‘Adi Dev’ - Brahma Baba’s biography- will be very beneficial.

1. God grants me a vision of a heavenly new world and says, “You need to establish a new world order by transforming this old world…” but He does not tell me how to achieve this task. What are my thoughts and feelings?

2. Everyone in my community is opposing me for having chosen a life of purity. They are defaming me, publishing slanderous articles in the newspapers and are encouraging others around the world to oppose me as well... I had been a highly respected member of my community earlier. What are my thoughts and feelings?

3. People want to come to me and listen to the words of wisdom that I utter… they even see visions of God and of heaven… but they are being chained, beaten up and not allowed to meet me… What are my thoughts and feelings?

4. A bandit has come to assassinate me because I am asking people to lead a pure life… How do I feel? The bandit sees a vision of his beloved deity and drops his arms. He goes away a changed person. I have not granted him that vision and know it is God’s work. What are my thoughts and feelings?

5. I have very established and highly prosperous business and God inspires me to surrender EVERYTHING to Him and His task not leaving any portion of my earnings for my immediate family… What are my thoughts and feelings?
[Note: In the beginning the yagya had to be created so the situation was different from that of today. God’s direction for his children is to take care of the household as a trustee. ]

6. I had been an ardent devotee of Vishnu all my life. I used to read the Gita everyday. I had many gurus. These things do not seem relevant now. I used to think that I am God and that I will merge with the Brahm element. I saw visions of my favourite deities who said Tat-tvam (You are also that deity). I had a vision of destruction that was to happen soon. But it has not happened so far and I don’t know when it would happen though I feel strongly that it will happen soon. I now know that God is different and he is Shiva. Also, I know now that the soul world is different and is our eternal abode. God does not clarify everything at once. I have had to correct my earlier statements many times. What are my thoughts and feelings?

7. People see visions of God when I am near them. When I speak, people feel immense impact and act upon it completely. I have no idea why these things are happening except that it must be God’s work. What are my thoughts and feelings?

8. I know the future of the soul who is in front of me, I know that soul will commit some grave mistake in the near future and that soul comes in front of me for my drishti and blessings… How would I feel? [Will I warn that soul about impending crisis? Will I be able to keep conscience clear and my mind empty from negative thoughts or vibrations of that situation for that soul?]

9. I have been given the responsibility of this GIGANTIC task to transform this world by transforming the deep-rooted sanskars of souls…I know that I myself have had a tough time managing my own sanskars of this birth. What are my thoughts and feelings?

10. God Himself designated me as World Servant. How do I feel?

11. In another two hours the lunch bell is going to ring and more than 300 brothers and sisters will be ready with their plates, but nothing is cooked yet because there is not a morsel of grain in the kitchen… How do I feel?

12. I am responsible for the physical, mental and spiritual progress of 300+ people (children, mothers, brothers etc) and they seem to be of all varieties… Some of them even doubt me now after having taken 14 years of loving sustenance… and want to go away… What are my thoughts and feelings?

13. My body is aging and it has undergone several operations. The hoarse dry cough seems to be constantly there even interrupting God’s murli. God says I must settle the karmic accounts through power of yoga and with tolerance. Those trustworthy souls who helped me establish the yagya (this institution) and helped me at every step are leaving their body one after another some of them having undergone painful diseases… What are my thoughts and feelings?

14. My son comes to me and says he wants to go to the outside world to earn money and come back. I know if he goes he would not come back anytime soon nor be able to claim his complete inheritance from God. Some of my other children refuse to follow that most elevated path that God has made me an instrument for… How do I feel?

15. I know I have to become a world emperor in my next life, but at the moment I have many weaknesses that I am yet to overcome… I tell everyone that Maya first comes to me but people see me as the ideal. They think it is all easy for me. How do I feel?

16. I was appointed by God to transform this hell into heaven. After 33 long years of effort, the world has become worse than when I started. How do I feel?

17. I have been instrumental in starting this spiritual organization that has spread across different parts of India, and the task assigned to me is yet to be completed. Under these circumstances if Shiva Baba asks me to leave this body and join Him, how would I feel?

18. The yagya that I started is expanding all over the world, but the challenges with respect to its administration are also multiplying… How do I feel?

19. I am the father, the ancestor of all humanity. How do I feel? [How would my drishti (vision) be? How would my vritti (attitude) be? How would my response be towards someone committing some mistake?]

20. God says every soul on Earth must follow none other than me. What are my thoughts and feelings?

21. If I were to give the experience of being God’s instrument at every moment to who ever comes in front of me… how do I feel?

After we have gone through the above thought experiments in an experiential manner, it is useful to consider the points of knowledge that Brahma Baba used to handle the situations. These points will prove effective in handling similar test papers in our own lives – and chances are high that our test papers are comparatively mellow in nature.

We have the luxury of having clarity of knowledge as well as Brahma Baba as a practical example in front of us. Let us follow father.

Instrument of God

I am an instrument. Baba is my backbone. I am a carefree emperor. Easy yogi, on the stage as a witness... and an actor.

Wah!

Peace and War

Morning was like:

'Every moment is the last moment... A loving intellect. No pulls of any kind, ready to serve through the mind. Service is an opportunity to check and change...

Self assurance. No longer looking for any approvals. Fundamentally moving forward. Ready to mould. Many signs are slowly appearing. Nearness.'

Evening was like:

'War signs again! Attention to efforts is mandatory.'

Hello ego

Had trouble with the 'meditator' guide and the meditation commentary.

"Its not the proper way to do things... It was fast, too deep and unsuitable for an unprepared audience..."

That was a trap and I neatly fell for it. Focus on what I can do in the situation and not what others are doing...

Wah, your ways of educating are truly unique.

Working by 'touchings'

'Touched by God'.

Working through inspirations is wonderful. Alert. Ever-ready. No questions. Full attention. Master and child at the same time.

"Crew to demo stations please!" Letting go of control. It's your work, you are in charge. I am just an instrument. No 'thanks' to be offered... just Wah!

Wah Baba wah!

Arrived

I have arrived.

No more planning. Just execution. Using whatever is available. Letting go of everything old. Freedom. It is divine.

Decisions

Speak Less. Only as much as essential.

Essenceful. Mature. Sweet. Soft. Dignified. Positive.

Failed

Needed to convey an idea. Ended up trying to impress and persuade. Failed to retain the level of self respect... and regained it only by the end of the conversation.

I do not need to convince. I do not need to persuade. I need to stay in my sense of dignity, maintain my self respect. Everything will be taken care of. I have no personal agenda. It is not my work. Success is guaranteed.

Attention!

The Great Puppeteer

Terrific example today. Requested for clear directions today and instantly got vividly clear directions during the murli. Needed permissions from many and felt sceptical, but got instant approvals.

Why on Earth should I even try to do anything limited? Why not only do what you want to do? Huh, I really really need to let go of the doing part. Being an instrument is the most liberating feeling ever!

The Inverse approach

He had said:

Be Incorporeal, Egoless, Viceless

I would have preferred the positive way of phrasing it...

Soul Conscious, Humble, Pure/Virtuous

Until I figured out today that my approach is the first step and its easy to start and to build confidence...and his approach is for the final stage when its easy to track whatever is remaining to be eliminated in order to achieve perfection.

And he did start by practicing...

Jashoda is a soul...

Hmm...It is wonderful to see how everything is invaluable at a different stage of life. There is a long long way to go.

Dad, you are just super!

Raw realization

I had become completely bankrupt and had not even realized it...

I had experienced the following vices and shortcomings (at some serious level or the other) before coming to the path of spirituality

Lust, anger, ego, hoarding, attachment, laziness, fear, pretense, stealing, lying, deceit, gossip, vulgarity, worry, negative thinking, miserliness, poverty, ingratitude, selfishness, parasitic behaviour, stupidity, distrust, self conscious

The following vices and shortcomings still caused serious challenges during the journey in spirituality

Lust, ego, pretense, attachment, distrust, some worry...

The following limitations are still lurking at various levels and can collapse into any and all the vices if attention is let go

Body consciousness, curiosity, ordinariness, love for research even when unnecessary, justification, need for repeated proofs, spiritual dullness, taking control, excess talk, fear of failure, distrust, confusion, thinking more and doing less...

The following deep experiences came to me only after coming into the path of spirituality

Purity, peace, love, freedom, happiness, bliss, knowledge of life, positivity, poetry, sweetness, friendliness, authenticity, dedication, generosity, humility, detachment, discipline, honesty, sincerity, cooperation, contribution, solitude, contentment, dignity, royalty, confidence, elevated thinking, power, abundance, gratitude, altruism, pure feelings and good wishes, wisdom, tolerance, flexibility...

Demonstration of real living

Attended a class by Dadi Janki meeting a group of newcomers.

"You have heard... have you understood?"
"Yes!"
"You have understood, now will you put it in action?"
"Yes!"

She spoke as a soul to fellow souls. With love, concern and goodwill. The thoughts were simple, pure, profoundly powerful. Very persuasive.

It's easy for each point to make total impact when it is lived. When it is no longer a point of knowledge but real life. Tremendous.

Seeing is not the same as reaching

When the goal is in sight, it does not mean I have reached the goal. It's still a long way off. A loooooooong long way off.

Need to maintain the stage with attention. The intense focus on service in between took off attention from the core efforts. And the overall efforts plummeted to the stage a couple of weeks ago. Interesting - the stage is good but the efforts are down. This is the way the downward spiral begins. Time to step up the attention on efforts again.

This assessment questionnaire is a boon.

Frank and Forthright Feedback

Excellent feedback given by a senior. Direct, loving, caring, yet concerned about the changed behaviour.

Reason? Lack of time to communicate unavailability. Too many service initiatives, many broken commitments...this is busier than any professional setup. And yet no time for what the sabbatical was meant for. Hmm..

Took the feedback very well. Accepted, apologised. Expressed helplessness on inability to handle things better...especially when the heart wants to serve and somehow believes that by some magic every bit of service can be done in each service wing.

Causing trouble (by broken commitments) and extra thoughts is not service. This is not the intended result of signing up to serve.

The strange thing is the result of the whole episode. A return apology from this noble soul who felt bad on having given the reprimand...and some comments on why 'i am needed' in that particular form of service.

'You have spoilt everyone' by being dedicated in doing what you do...and being taken for granted when available is inevitable. Must learn to say no firmly to whatever is 'required' without consideration to current commitments.

Another senior had an interesting perspective. Set strictly firm timings for self progress. During other times be available for service of any type.

Today for the first time, saw true detachment from each form of service. There was no excitement, no eagerness any more... no more getting lost in the details. It was action that was sincere, dedicated and yet detached and able to switch off quickly.

Another nice test was when 'my time' was being 'wasted' by making me wait while some 'unimportant' work was going on. After a few moments, seized the lottery of using this idle time wisely in churning.

Hmm... some signs of progress.

Pure Bliss

If any student of spirituality, nay, any student of life wants to quench their thirst and to feel truly fulfilled, there is no better nectar than the deep reflective study of avyakt murlis. As one studies on... the intellect opens, the perspective broadens, everything becomes very vividly clear...

Loving spoon feeding by God... simply out of the world experience.

Renunciation

The course on renunciation is simply out of the world! So simple. So elegant. So profound. So beautiful! Aha ha!
Starting 1.4.1982.

Complete Handover

Jumble of thoughts...

• Doing my 'duty' at Amritvela - communicating with appropriate instruments... as a friend.
• Compassionate approach towards those who have hurt others
• 'Do Not Interfere' - a strong yet strange 'guideline'. I obey.
• Surrendering fully - the whole self progress plan has been an abysmal failure wrt the targets set. This really needs God's help.
• Handing over the senses - no need to know anything or to tell anyone
• No idea on how to manage different requests - have been saying no to everything! Still doesn't work.
• 'Scared'/Unsure about handing over the planning intellect. Trust...
• Need to build real depth... and then don't care about Maya's attacks
• No review/post mortem/assessment needed
• Asking Baba to grant the wisdom so that I can be self reliant!!!
• Why not trust God, Drama and the Process?
• Others have not succeeded... maybe they didn't trust! Follow father and mother!
• The ones who have faith in the intellect are successful.
• How can I tell others until I know the plan? But then, how can I know the plan until I let go of the status quo?
• Handover the reins... handover the intellect... Give UP! Let go! Be Free!
• This is 1932 level purusharth... gee...

Unconditional Surrender?

• Tried to avoid taking the frontline for service... surrender now.
• Remembered the topic for today several times... but not good enough.
• No study for homework
• Hmm...Further pushback for service is not fair
• Avoid things that do not need participation... have no real contribution
• Listened to many stories of pain
• Uttered brusque/witty statements - 'familiarity'/casual.
• Many remarks - assessments on others regarding suitability for apt service.
• Hmm...
• Every free second must be used. No excuses.
• Well... this is nowhere near.

What would I do if I had only 14 days to live?

1. Unconditional Surrender
2. Complete handover
3. Total internal renunciation
4. Dedication towards maximum fulfillment
5. Combined - Tapasvi
6. Non stop service
7. Drill Mastery
8. Exploring golden aged virtues
9. Master Ocean of mercy
10. ...
11. ...
12. ...
13. ...
14. ...

Full stop

Put a full stop to reviewing the past. One minute is more than enough to do a calm comprehensive review in a detached manner. Then FINISH IT forever.

In depth checking

Checking on a variety of fronts:

• Celebrating a milestone or accepting the outcome gracefully and knowing it to be inevitable
• Taking the 'calling' personally or as a call from God for using a suitable instrument
• Doubtful thoughts about possible mistakes or stable in the throne of self respect
• Desire for name, fame, recognition or detached and beyond
• Inhibited or excited by unexpected limelight or being comfortable as a demo piece
• Forgetting the original plan due to new interesting activities or sticking to it in depth
• Rebelling as per old habits or accepting and becoming the stage as per the guidance given

Trust broken and restored

Trust was broken when something was taken without permission. And yet with silence the status quo was maintained. To let things be as they are and to change the perception - it is not a case of broken trust. It is a case of friendship and family feeling where there is no need for permission...

Trust. Silence. No guessing. Acceptance and Love. Freedom and letting others free.
Wah!

Destroying at a distance

Detected Maya from afar before it had any power to influence and destroyed it completely. Immensely satisfying.

Now I know this is WAR. Today's murli was fascinating in terms of defining stability.

Blessings

A very simple way of giving and receiving blessings: Listen attentively.

Talk without substance

Talking about Baba without staying connected to him is not acceptable. Instrument consciousness is gone and connection is broken.

Predictability

A good instrument has predictable behaviour. Even an instrument that has flaws but is predictable is a useful instrument in the hands of a master.

An instrument that behaves erratically from time to time is quickly set aside. Like a leaky pen that may write well at times but leaves a large blot suddenly from time to time...

Checking point: Am I predictable?

Clear off the daily account

If the chart is not properly expressed and the day is not cleared up at night, the missing aspects flash in front in the morning.

Baba gives signals even for physical health and safety. I need to use them.

Excellence and worthiness

Excellence needs mastery in some discipline.
To be a worthy instrument needs good background in many disciplines.

The Puppeteer

Every experience, every gift, every idea, every viewpoint, everything is suddenly useful - even every mistake. There is nothing to be grateful about...you are at work.

I am a puppet, an instrument.... and though I thought I knew that, I did not even begin to know the extent of it all...

Past is past

Everything to be looked at afresh. From an eternal perspective - like you maintain.

Clarity comes from yoga

When there is good yoga, the intellect clears up. The clouds of uncertainty are lifted and visibility is restored. Things are simple again.

Deep Yoga

During deep yoga the body goes into complete relaxation. It becomes still. It is a state of rest. There is no movement, no awareness of the body, of the limbs etc.

The state is experiential. When awareness returns to the present moment, the body becomes available...slowly each limb, the organs become available.

Scared?

Early morning - Pitch dark. Silent walk up the hill. A sudden rustle from a nearby bush. The heart skips a beat. Snake?

Caught! Getting back to soul consciousness and then remembrance and then moving on calmly.

Soul consciousness is a state beyond fear.

Some old reflections and an action plan

Why have I not arrived?

• My goal - the final goal is not crystal clear; vividly clear in complete detail including my lifestyle and code of conduct
• The benefits of change/transformation have not been realized
• Fear of failure? What if I make full efforts and fail?
• Am I lacking integrity?
• Still enjoying the old and worn out but well known and comfortable?
• Why do I fear realization? Accept the shortcomings...
• Any lack of faith? Love? Any Doubts?
• Laziness in spirituality... not going deep enough
• Lacking regular deep experiences

Action Plan - what small steps can I take right now

• Quality not Quantity
• Self stage and purusharth before everything else
• Stop. Check and Change every 15 minutes

How to be complete and perfect in a second?

Go into the essence - the seed stage.

Project Block?

Is this service project a block - an obstacle for completing my homework? Like a scaffolding that must be removed before construction is complete?

No it is not. It is a test of dharana. Its actually brilliant.
Claiming a powerful stage is attitude driven. Circumstances never hinder. They only help reach the right goal faster.

Every block encountered is there as the next level to be crossed for further success. Stability in yoga is the bedrock of yogi life.

Thinking much about blocks/challenges makes them seem big.
Detach, go beyond, connect, empower and then re-look. Now its easy.

A powerful stage DESTROYS weaknesses.

Company of the Best

The two best teachers (one for theory, one for practical implementation), the two wisest souls in the universe are my personal guides.

Everything is vividly clear. I just need to stay focused.

Rebellion

I refuse to stick to plans and routines for the sake of them even if I have carefully created them in my own best interest. I tend to go with the flow. Going deeper is more appealing than following a structured routine that would be more balanced and holistic.

Hmm...

Busy with what?

Can you do this?
And that too?
And oh yes, this one is urgent.
And this one is best done by you.

So many unfulfilled requests. All important. All service oriented. All with high impact. All asked with love and trust. Supply simply does not match demand. Prioritizing them does help but has big limitations.

No wonder he tells us - make others equal to and better than yourself. Its not about talent or knowledge or skill. Everyone is uniquely equipped to contribute. Its not even about dedication. Its about demonstrated ownership and trustworthiness.

Clearly I have not been effective in supporting other souls in a way that many more can be available to fulfill these service opportunities.

Interesting thing is that as you work more and more on yourself, more and more opportunities for expression through service and stage come your way.

Meanwhile Dad has a request. One HUGE request.
Die permanently from ordinariness.

Do not try to practice

Practice of inculcating virtues can be superficial. It is more useful to go into the depths of self realization and emerge those virtues.

Faith

The child giggles with joy
When the father throws her into the air

The child jumps into the water
When the Father asks him to jump

The little bird flaps its wings vigorously and
Finally leaves the branch to fly like its mother

Faith. Trust. Assurance. Comfort. Security.
No fear. No worries.

It's not my job.
Dad is here - you are just helping out - he will guide.
Now smile please.

They smiled... and he smiles

Oh yes, another innocent one
Who has lofty aims
To succeed where none could reach before
In a timeframe that is inconceivable
Except by our common teacher

They smile. Yes, it is a trick of this old teacher
He urges us to work hard
But it is not possible

If he said it, it must be true, say I
He would not lie
They smile. Then they look at me and nod slowly

He will help If I try
They agree
I turn to him and he says, do not try
That is a sign of weakness
Victory is your birthright, claim it.

Calm in Chaos

There is much to be done
The goal is lofty
Don't know the way yet

And yet there is my silent invisible companion
He is there calm, resolute, powerful

I turn to him and feel assured
I turn back to the task and forget everything
The task looms large and I plan and plan and re-plan
And then sheepishly turn back to him

There is chaos
There is calm in there too

Love and Social mores

An old captivating song...

There is love on one side and the world on another...
Where should I go...O where should I go?

The heart says go wherever the beloved goes

Another one...

The eyes do not know him but the heart recognizes
Who is this who has come into my heart?

Yet another...

Come sweetheart, let us go beyond the moon
I am ready, come let us go

Come let us get lost among the stars
Let us leave this world and these lands today

Even if this life gets over,
Let our journey of love not end...

One more...

Having asked for your company,
I have asked for the whole world

The heart says I have found the beloved
I say I have found my love
I have found my friend, I have found a new world

My hopes have been fulfilled, my dreams have come true
I have found everything needed for this life
I have found my support

My heart is young and the times are beautiful
Come let us go somewhere
Take me anywhere, I have faith in you...

You are my life, you are my heart
You are my journey, you are my destination
You are the star of my hopes

Truly all love is a seeking for your love... that true undying eternal love
A mysterious hero from far beyond comes and captivates the heart

Meanwhile the world is caught up in trivial little things. And the social mores seek to trap the heart in the mundane. But once you taste the nectar of Gods how can anything else appeal?

Disengagement

Use the organs when there is need. Otherwise stay disengaged.

Jewels of Knowledge

Each Jewel is worth millions. There are many millionaires who are spiritually poor and there are many who are poor but spiritually well off.

A sign of true spiritual prosperity is that physical prosperity cannot be far behind. Physical wealth needs to be treated with dispassion, but it will arrive.

The opposite situation - of King Janak - is rare. To have physical prosperity and then arrive at spiritual wealth.

But no matter what the background, everyone can benefit from these jewels...

Personal tuition

God will provide personal tuition if required. He will provide all experiences.
I just need to get out and take it as much as I want.

Carpe diem! Seize the day! What an opportunity!

Just to spend some time in introspection and being flooded with insights - like last week - what a tremendous fortune.

These are truly pampered times. How rare this opportunity! And yet how few the takers! Who would believe that people are really reluctant to practically benefit themselves...All benefits are rejected...change must really feel scary.

Many flavours of truth

Every point adopts many different levels of meanings. Entirely different perspectives depending on the one who is thinking about it.

We create our realities. The observer affects the observed.

What a grand drama!

Aha - finally I met the decision maker

There is only one soul who decides the final stage. Myself.

There are no reasons or excuses. Becoming equal to the Father is easy if I follow the Father instead of catering to whims and fancies of one and all (including mine).

Get to the point. Accept unconditional personal responsibility. There is no choice.

Uninspired Independence

Once again the need arose and I took some independent decisions. It was almost involuntary. And the result was a good sharing that many appreciated. But it felt inadequate. It lacked the elevated feeling that comes from being an instrument of God.

Being good, being independent is simply not upto the mark.

I submit the decisions made:

• I will uphold the glory of the family through my elevated conduct
• I will experience deep personal sustenance from you through Tapasya
• I will complete the homework given by you by Oct 20, 2008

Now I let go of the ego of the intellect. I surrender.
Please guide me - I will follow you.

I will stay in dependence from now on.

Time for Compassion

When people indulge in self praise, have compassion. They are good, but they are lacking self esteem at the moment. They are trying to get it back. They are trying to remind themselves and others. It is hard work and it is unpleasant for all.

Give them loving good wishes. Let them get back on track soon.

The Yagya is fantastic

The yagya is just divine. The dadis uphold the culture and the principles.  The love and sustenance is just fascinating.

Today again I felt the immense satisfaction of watching a wise elder lovingly advise and admonish on the code of conduct. Such elevated thoughts. Such high standard of behaviour. Tremendous dharana.

There are many who do not live up to it. But the best students are clearly out of the world. Even the best make mistakes from time to time. But today I felt deep admiration for some fellow human beings. They have done well. Blessings from my heart. Showpieces in God's showcase.

Wah Baba, your ways are unique. Your family is unique.
You are so incognito. So amazingly unique.

Dowry

Today after Amritvela I was strangely considering the dowry I would give for my sister's wedding in the Golden age.

And then I brushed the thoughts as silly. How could there be dowry in Golden age - it is a marriage by choice 'swayamvar'! And then today's murli talked about the dowry system in the Golden age. Very interesting.

Easy vs Hard... and Atheism

As long as I try, it is hard work. When I express helplessness and turn to God, there is rapid progress.

When there is defeat and I turn to Baba, there is rapid progress again.

Why not turn to God before feeling helpless? Why not get it done through him in the first place? It is so easy if I am with Baba and yet the ego fools me into thinking again and again that it is easy for me to do it alone.

Perhaps this is also to do with the trust factor. When a soul placed its trust on the sages and the priests and when they could not deliver God but turned out to be well meaning fellow seekers who were merely repeating hand me down learnings...the trust was broken. And when a soul seeks and seeks and does not find, it becomes an atheist.

For an old soul, atheism seems synonymous with the case of broken trust. And it takes God himself to repair the damage. It has certainly been worth the trouble...though I dare say it may not have been an easy journey in my last couple of births.

Now, I must remember to take it easy. Baba - I am yours again.

Something wrong

Greatness. Ordinariness. One day reverent faith. Next day pondering over the basics to reaffirm and build faith.

Starting from first principles each day...does it make any sense? Yes, but not really from scratch each time!!! Something wrong...isn't it?

In God we Trust

They say, they write... 'In God we Trust'.

Do they really?

I discovered that after all these years, and so many many attainments, I did not really trust God with handling 'my ultimate goals'. If I really let go of 'my grand plans' , would I get stuck like so many others have? Would I get trapped in some administrative trivia? Great talk, no stuff?

And yet, on examination every goal turned out to be his goal pretending to be mine! Wonder of wonders! This life is way beyond my most extreme ambitions and yet the bar has been raised again. And I commit the folly of striving to do it alone. O ego! You have fooled me again...and i did not notice for so long.

What could be simpler common sense than let him take care of the stuff and live a simple happy life? Common-sensical real living is totally missing most of the time.

A great instrument is one through which the master creates masterpieces effortlessly - without having to worry about any quirky behaviour on the part of the instrument.

Trust God. He can see the big picture. Don't try to change the master's strokes. It will all fit well in the grand scheme of things.

'Good' Answers

A 'good' short answer for all situations: 'It depends'.
Everything is context driven.

Well, almost everything.
A 'right' answer for all situations: 'First be soul conscious and then...'

This is not a race

There is no race... it is a collaborative effort. We are supportive of each other. We will reach wherever we need to reach.

Authenticity has tremendous power. Living in the unlimited. REAL Life.

What is Purity?

Purity is not absence of impurity.
That's like saying light is the absence of darkness!

Purity is Originality

Purity is Truth

Purity is Beauty - It is attractive

What is meant by an Ocean of purity?

God is truth. God is benevolent. God is pure... beautiful.

Rhetoric

One speech felt like rhetoric while another was persuasive. The difference was not in the content or delivery style. It was purely on the level of purity and yoga power.

Deep Love

Dadis had tremendous exposure to Sakar Baba. That deep love for God stems from that. To have similar love, it needs similar companionship. The offer is open and constantly extended. Constant loving remembrance - Tapasya.

Joy

Fundamental happiness goes missing pretty quickly - it is effervescent in an achievement driven world where quantity is sought. I need to invest time in building depth and quality.

Joy comes when I am self aware and aware of the wonder of the drama!

The Joy of sight, the joy of hearing, of enacting roles, of meeting others, of dancing with God! We are one large lovely variety family! What a game!

This is a giant playground of life! A wonderful fascinating drama!

And what a special role I have got!

The poor little rich boy

The character 'Richie Rich' was described as the poor little rich boy. After all when you have everything you could ever want, what can motivate or inspire you?

And yet how wrong that can be...

In this confluence of the worst and the best ages, there are many great motivators...

• A great cause
• Love
• Opportunity to enact a wonderful role

And the Golden age is a time where there is no want but there are infinite opportunities to express one's innate qualities. No wonder that art flourishes.

Freedom from Obstacles

There are no obstacles for one who has decided to be victorious. There are only side scenes and learning opportunities.

Slowing down

There is great beauty in slowing down and living in remembrance of God.

I Recognize that...

You have given me the job
You have called me for the training
You are preparing the groundwork necessary
I am your instrument.

I will stay focused.

Guidelines from a senior

Whatever you do, have a concrete aim. Make it measurable.
Prepare specific actionables so that others can follow easily.
Topics that would be useful:

• Secrets of karma
• Conquering matter
• 8 hours of yoga
• Contentment
• Visual Murlis
• Viceless intellect
• Disaster Management

"You are a bridge between science and spirituality.
The Yagya will benefit significantly and so will everyone."

Watching Angels in Action

You can learn a lot just by watching. Actions shout!

The contents may completely be ignored but every movement speaks volumes. Madhuban is a palace of Mirrors. Every action is visible instantly to everyone. Everything is crystal clear to everyone...wow!

Even one act of humility instantly commands respect. The stage is visible on the face and action.

DO NOT TRY

Don't try. Be.

This furnace will put the seal of perfection.
Unconditional. Forever.

Power

Knowledge and churning DO NOT equal power.

Authority of experience equals power.

A new form of dying

Going away from books is like dying. They suddenly seem so vitally important that I have to tear myself away. And finally I did take a couple along.

It hasn't been like this before. Hmm.

Get the perspective

There have been many who came and spoke wise words. Some also had a great sense of humour. They could captivate the audience. But they couldn't change the world.

They couldn't transform lives by their presence.

No Hurry

Time and the paucity thereof is an illusion.

I will take as long as needed for digesting each murli. I will only move onto the next murli when I am thoroughly satisfied. There is no hurry.

As someone said - "the hurrier I go, the behinder I get".

When a strength becomes a handicap

When I am overwhelmed by the need to exercise my strengths...it is a handicap.

The strength is a strength when it is used at will and discarded unceremoniously when not required.

Who is 'in charge' here?

If I do not set the priorities for my life, the world will set them for me.

For success in purusharth, life skills are just as essential. It is only superficially different. Acknowledge the challenges-physical, mental, emotional, spiritual and learn, change and move forward.

The same problem can arise at different levels. The outward symptoms are the same, the reasons and perspectives are different but the problem is the same - same damages too... they need to be overcome.

I may have all the best resources in the world... but I am the master who determines what is the best form of usage...

Hmm...am I really the master? Do I really determine that all (or even most of) the time?

No. Not yet.

NOTE to Self

The Project I involve in will be fully useful for me from day one. Then with the authority of experience I will expand the sharing to make it fully effective.

The best plan that has all the detail but is too prohibitively complex will not be adopted by anyone (including myself!)

Start simple and then build.

Beyond task orientation

I am not at the mercy of the TO DO list.
I have the privilege of choosing my actions... it is the tasks that will have to battle for the honour of my taking them up as a service initiative.

Priorities. When I sort out my perspective, everything becomes clear in my life.

Dad - how do you use Your time?

About Decisions

Decisions are critical.
Even if I know something, it is when I decide how my life is going to be on the basis of the acquired knowledge, that decision makes all the difference.

Exam and Certification

It is not that after so many days I will have an exam.
It is, I have exam for so many days and then I will be certified.

Huge difference in perspective between the two...

Mercy and Compassion

That was a good test paper... letting go of everything...I, mine, ego...possession of ideas, initiative, depth, ownership... and just following like a child. Good good good. Seeing something sub-optimal and then letting go... being appreciative(with a pause at first... but later from the heart)...not straightforward at all, but the direction is right.

And excellent question: No matter what the situation - how can I contribute right now in a positive way?

Accepting my reality...who am I in God's vision... and then behaving accordingly.

God at work

How could I even imagine taking the job title personally? You do the work from every direction... you touch the intellects, prepare the ground, set the stage, articulate the cause, bond the souls... and I had thought I was taking initiative!

Doer? No, you are the inspirer.

To be beyond personal identity and to be used as an instrument is such a privilege!
And the moment there is any personal involvement, how ordinary the whole thing becomes...What a privilege to watch you work at close quarters!

And yet... No. This is not just a privilege. This is what is necessary...natural... essential. Hmm...it takes time to digest this.

Clock and the Compass

Truly speaking the original plan has been taken over by innumerable activities.

As they say, the Compass is better than the clock - setting the right direction, doing the right things, holding tight to the principles and being easy on the tasks.

Justification even now?

Noticed a tendency to justify and prove... and then gently went beyond.

They say... the Universe helps

When the vision is profound, the universe rallies around to help achieve it...Ideas fly in from everywhere...guess who is helping?

You are truly the father of all. And how incognito!

Law of behaviour

You can only act at the level of your own self respect

Transformational changes

Every paradigm shift is preceded by great tumult. Utter chaos. Things seem out of sync. Huge challenges, basic disconnects.

And when you ask for it, you get it in plenty. Fascinating.

And then when the situation seems almost hopeless and you still hang on and expect that insight...from down under... an unforeseen corner a new insight comes, clarity dawns. Aha!

And it is time to smile radiantly again... with heartfelt gratitude. The perseverance is ever so rewarding!

Promise

No matter what I do, I will not forget myself. I will stay beyond the roles. Situations CAN NOT change my identity!!!

How silly and yet how profound!

Tasks orientation

There is a tendency to think of tasks done and tasks remaining. Action orientation. Living by checklists. This causes pressure and also yields satisfaction.

Does it?

REMEMBER: The doer and the Inspirer. I am just an instrument.
Oh really - you did do all that did you? And that, and the other thing too... Hmm...

The Dadis don't have time for themselves. They make time in between tasks and during the tasks... tireless servers... The practice over a long time helps keep the stage good even with these short silence breaks. Attention to stage is constant... Serving in all three levels - thoughts, words, actions...

"Smile Please! You are doing this for me, aren't you?"

When you have too much to do, its a clear sign that you are trying to do too much. Share the opportunities with all who can be up to it. Some wait to be asked. So ask. It is an opportunity to help everyone make a fortune.

The Dance

The Dance of harmonizing sanskars means to be flexible and to adjust actions accordingly. It is not about getting things done in the most optimal way. Its about doing the best given the people and resources. Interestingly the constraints make the personal development even better.

Deep, genuine respect and renunciation is necessary. Otherwise there are chances of getting hurt or upset or feeling offended at some level.

Handover... handover...you take care of it all dad.

Trusteeship

Trusteeship has a new meaning... when everything belongs to God.

Time to Fly

This is the time for Effortless success...
To fly together... beyond in a second...

An Old Promise still works wonders

Baba...
I need nothing.
I want nothing.
I have nothing.

Everything is yours. I am an instrument.

Landmark Milestone

With some liberal marks...'erring on the generous side'...
A Landmark milestone has been achieved.

Is this self deception? I do not know yet.
But the signs of lasting change are beginning to show up.

Handing Over

Handing over the mind, intellect and sanskars to Baba...
-> Use them as Baba would.

There is long way to go before...
No. There is just a second before... I become what I truly am!

Humility

Humility is an armour.. Being inclusive and supportive and empowering...

Baba - you are amazing!

Baba you are at work... making things happen... you are just amazing!
We take one step together... and then you get a thousand things done in the background...

Wah Baba!

The future is astonishing! Wah Baba! What a vision!

Baba, we will miss you in heaven... and we won't even notice. It feels unacceptable.

Out of the world... and then forgot!

For a few hours... it was just out of the world...

And then I got occupied!

Nevertheless... tend to share and serve everywhere....

Next Steps in Yoga

The Confluence age is shooting away at breathtaking speeds.
Am I closer to my goals? Really? Measurably?

Am I willing to have at least 8 hours of yoga today?
If I am with Baba for at least 8 hours everyday, what will happen?
Goal reached.

Today I will spend minimum 8 hours with BapDada, irrespective of what I am doing.

How simple! How straightforward! To become like Baba what should I do? Be with Him all the time!!!

This one things is enough! Stay with self respect with relationship, with a right!

There are many things that can't be shared with the world yet.
  Why - because they may not understand?
   Because I don't have confidence yet?  
     Social impact? What will they think?
       Or is it that I should share once I have completed and achieved... not prematurely?

Today Baba and I will be on a world tour... for loving service.

Oh World...
When will you ever be able to even conceive of such sublime experiences?
Oh the unfairness of it all... when can this privilege, this honour, this inconceivable togetherness and love and compassion and generosity and power and bliss and everything be experienced by others...when Oh when...

Hmm...

How profound the Amritvela today... and yet after a day full of talk talk talk...
How ordinary the stage at the end...

Fascinating!

This is a fascinating adventure! Ever full of secrets!

I have EVERYTHING at my disposal. Science too can be grasped through spirituality.

The master of the elements! The body is a toy... the world is a stage... we are incredibly powerful!

What a grand drama! Every scene is perfect! It is an opportunity to explore and enjoy deeper secrets!

Why are secrets still secrets? They are guarded by challenging situations...No fear! What a grand drama!

Equanimity = Equal in Victory and Defeat!
I never never saw this before inspite of having heard this a zillion times!

In fact there is no victory or defeat! Wow!!!

There are many levels of truth... perceived by souls at their own levels... He caters to everyone! Aha!

Love - willingness to tolerate for the beloved.
Meanings are so radically different at different stages of purusharth!

What is sin? An act that makes the truth invisible.
What is a vice? A habit... a 'sinful' habit.

Can a smoker go to heaven? [Not yonder in the skies... but yonder into time...]
He isn't bad! But the vice blocks the truth. Same with lust, anger...

Bravery - to go valiantly into the storm knowing that there will be temporary pain but tremendous gains!

Follow the heart! Follow your dream!
Explore and dig deeper until you have found!
And then go deeper still! It is an OCEAN!!!

Baba is not just an Ocean of knowledge!
Baba you are an Ocean of Love!
An Ocean of Peace!
Aha! What have I found!
What have I got!

Am I precious to you Baba? What a silly question!
You are precious to everyone! And everyone is precious to you!

O King of detachment - I Adore You!!!

Baba - I will not celebrate Victory. I am not the rat who felt he was the grocer.
Merged with the Ocean... loveleen...what a life!

Baba.. I have found you.. you have found me...I have everything!