As long as I try, it is hard work. When I express helplessness and turn to God, there is rapid progress.
When there is defeat and I turn to Baba, there is rapid progress again.
Why not turn to God before feeling helpless? Why not get it done through him in the first place? It is so easy if I am with Baba and yet the ego fools me into thinking again and again that it is easy for me to do it alone.
Perhaps this is also to do with the trust factor. When a soul placed its trust on the sages and the priests and when they could not deliver God but turned out to be well meaning fellow seekers who were merely repeating hand me down learnings...the trust was broken. And when a soul seeks and seeks and does not find, it becomes an atheist.
For an old soul, atheism seems synonymous with the case of broken trust. And it takes God himself to repair the damage. It has certainly been worth the trouble...though I dare say it may not have been an easy journey in my last couple of births.
Now, I must remember to take it easy. Baba - I am yours again.
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Trust is not something littly given. To trust with so little to back it up seems awesome and leads to feelings of calm- it removes worry as the problems, responsiblity are out of your hands, yet you still feel control.
When in doubt, trust in yourself. And NEVER let your self down. Others may be trust worthy, but the responsibilty for dealing with such horrendous things that they shatter the mind lies in you.
Your mind is your fortress, questions your shield and curiosity your battlements. Do not sacrifice your defenses because it is the easy path and brings peace- for peace is NOT the best result. It will give when you need it most, just like poor steel will become brittle and break under the cold
Explore your mind and understand it. Find what makes it tick, what its strengths are, where its blindspots are, what it is capable of. It will not bring joy or contentment- that is what life is for.
It will simply prepare yourself for life.
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