About Storms and the Calm...

Discussion with an Angel...

Does the storm in the mind cause bad karma?

If its a storm in the mind, then not really... (even though the vibrations are not good)
If its consciously done (intellect agrees) then it is bad karma...

So the need is to weather the storm...

Truth

My goal

• I will see the truth and nothing but the truth.
• I will hear the truth and nothing but the truth.
• I will speak the truth and nothing but the truth.
• I will do the truth and nothing but the truth.
• I will think the truth and nothing but the truth.

They care...

That someone cares to show that they care... is an amazing thing in this world.

Parents are Godlike. Mother...simply Godlike. Unconditionally loving... They just have to take that one additional step of becoming world mothers...

Friends are so supportive. Colleagues so cooperative. Relatives so understanding. Classmates so encouraging, and my sanskaras are so conducive...

Overall, the world is at its worst and none of these are reliable. Considering that, its mind boggling that they care to care...

Thank you Baba...

The need is critical...

Everyone needs help. The brilliant. The ordinary. The retarted...

Those who know about values... and those who don't. Those who know God and those who don't.
i have to charge my batteries...and others will seek out the source...

Thank you Baba.

The Gift

What gift can i offer to the One who is the Bestower?

my original self...
natural purity...

Thank you sweet Baba for everything. There is nothing to say to you really... only to be...

Interesting... what can i tell God? i only have to be.

Hmmm... virtue out of a necessity?

How often do i make a virtue out of a necessity?

Very often i guess. And i seem to like talking about these things at every opportunity. Gosh, thats a lot of dirt. Impression management seems to be going on at so many levels. Oh dear.

Sorry Baba... for the n thousandth time... i wonder if i ever mean it from the heart... this statement of sorry... of course i mean it, but then i really don't for i seem to repeat the mistakes ever so often...

It really does take time to sink in.

No Problems - Interesting...

Right when its the peak of service for Rakhi... am flooded with office work. And soooo much work. And yet, i feel completely at ease. Enjoying myself.

i sense dis-ease in many. i sense that some are upset with me... and have that upleasant unrest within. And yet i feel comfortable with them. i look with regard, sometimes do not look either... but its more with concern for them than otherwise.

i sense loving feelings from some. Caring feelings... all of a sudden...and yet i feel detached. Not much attention goes there either. Regard yes... but that's about it. Here is a soul who has overcome some blocks...

There is much work to do... and yet there is no pressure... very interesting. Some jobs are unfinished, will not be finished... and yet there is no pressure. Remarkable.

There was a desire for sight-seeing. It pretended to ride on the back of the service opportunity. But yea, at the heart there was this slight desire. And when i faced it and moved away, it went away too. What a relief! Thank you Baba.

The unlimited intellect. Truly considering the overall picture. Very interesting insights...

And all this after a series of storms. The hammer is needed and the chisel too... for the idol to be created. And yet, when the storm hits, the soul is so sullenly non-chalant. Don't care attitude. It feels like heresy.... And yet that is the reality.

How much bad karma must i have accumulated by now in this lovely birth? And yet, no matter how much i understand... as long as i do not realise it, its still called Maya. That's a saving grace... and yet no excuse for foolishness.

i think i am fed up of Maya... i always think so, just before the next storm hits home. Some people are born optimists... (and i hope that stays that way until victory reigns forever).

Baba, i owe you a lot of remembrance...

Why and Why Not. Living by Choice. Thoughts

The Why of Anything

• Benefit or Attainment

The Why Not of Anything

• Harm or Loss

Deliberate actions. Mindfulness. Brahmin life is not routine or mundane. It is constantly new. Always the present.

Unlimited.

Living by choice. i am the master creator. i create my world and live in it.

Hmmm.... i need to serve through the mind...

Fundamentally i am a very great soul. Thank you Baba for providing those insights in the murli...

Sanskars may/will be different and yet closeness is necessarily there. Be an instrument.

A Broad Intellect.

Hands Up!

Height of stupidity

To know the ultimate... to know God... to understand the supreme knowledge that is the source of the highest income, the greatest attainment of all... and yet... and yet... to behave in a contrary manner.

Aho maya, you have captured your customers and made them completely senseless.

It just doesn't make any sense. i am God's child and yet i behave in such a silly fashion! And Baba is simply unbelievable... what infinite tolerance! Infinite patience!

'i would have been a very frustrated God if i had to manage such children...' and yet that statement displays the ignorance of Baba's oceanic qualities...

i think about Baba more than i talk to Baba... oh well.

Learnings... pause and ponder

'My sanskaras are changing but my habits are not'... its remarkable.

Even when the desire for a particular thing is lost, the sheer habit of taking it may follow through... even things as simple and 'benign' as eating almonds for good health becoming a compulsive habit.

'The machinery has grown bigger than the authority to handle it'... this seems to be ubiquitous now. For a soul whose love has been knowledge and yoga resulting in dharana and service... the changover to being led around by service has been so stealthy... aho maya!

'Concentration is purity'... Concentration was my first love in the murli. i will master it... Baba... i will...

When you are pulled, do you grow or do you snap?

Interesting thought...

When you are pulled from all directions, do you grow or do you just snap?

It really depends on how strong, how resilient, how flexible we are internally. Pretense does not help. If i am strong, good for me... otherwise i need to develop the strength. One thing is guaranteed, we will get stretched in all directions.

Just thought about Jagdish bhai's approach. People used to complain... he looks straight ahead, does not take the time to say 'Om Shanti' also... but from his perspective, if he were to look at every soul that came by and wanted to say 'Om Shanti' and ask about his health, he would pretty much turn into a nice sociable person who does not have any time for churning and doing the task he did do... And yet he had the balance of humour, love, compassion, humility, solitude...
Wah, what a lovely family! Wah Baba!

My Desires

Today Baba promised that He had come to fulfill all my desires and make me completely contented. So, here are the list of my very core, pending desires that are going to get fulfilled... Wah my fortunes!

1. To be completely knowledgeful, a master Ocean of knowledge
2. To be Bap Samaan in all experiences
3. To be the role model for rapid, systematic, result oriented purusharth

We are all fundamentally different souls. Doing what another does, doesn't make me that like that one... our backgrounds, our maturity levels are completely different. One may copy actions, but one cannot copy intentions and intensities.

Lovely goals for myself
1. Stay in the unlimited
2. Arjuna - one pointed concentration
3. Non stop peace and relaxation
4. Mastery of the power to withdraw... leading to mastery of all powers
5. To reveal BapDada through my actions and stage wherever i am...

A life of Superlatives

"Heartfelt gratitute to Beloved Baba and my/our incredibly lucky eternal roles...
To be part of this fascinating family at these wonderous times is simply
amazing..."

Isn't that wonderful? Who would ever think these thoughts, other than the totally blissed out, intoxicated ones? How fortunate i have become to even think such thoughts!

The Master Creator

The world is my perception of it.

My thoughts give it value. my world is entirely my creation. What kind of a world do i create and live in?

Who am i really? What am i doing?

Transcending myself

What is my agenda in life? Why am i doing whatever i am doing? And till when do i do that?

It is a growth path. Life offers me lessons. And i continue facing the same test until i learn the lesson and move on. This is not worth struggling. Instead, i have to take the responsibility.

If God were to give me the responsibility of making myself the best that could be, what would i do? The subjects for self-mastery are clearly defined. The benchmarks are set. The method is given too. Examples and Case studies are readily provided. Help is offered as well. It is the implementation, execution that makes all the difference.

i will take the responsibility. And that will make all the difference.

Calm After the Storm

Often, the best levels of efforts and results take place after the worst failure. Its almost a rule.

And sometimes, failures seem to be inevitable, though i'd rather not have it that way... the solutions seem so obvious, and not implementing them seem so foolish that its incredible that someone could still fail. And yet, i fail time and again.

And then clarity dawns. Strength is seen. Perspectives obtained. There is the calm after the storm. Spring after the winter. Golden Age after the Iron Age.

63 births of bad karma. Since i am on the reverse journey, i will encounter all of the layers as i clean the soul. And as i go about doing that, if my stage is not clean and the wound is not healed by yoga, i will get hurt when i encounter the layer of dirt. And i may end up harming myself up. i need to be careful while cleaning wounds...

And so yoga is so critical and yet seldom done...It is amazing... this phenomenon called "The Stone Intellect"

Funnily enough, after the storm, the intellect becomes Divine for some time.

It is a process. The process of growing up. Thank you sweetheart for this wonderful life.

Priorities...

Mindfulness... zero rush.
It is an incessant journey until perfection. Being alive and in the moment is a necessary thing.

Appreciative Living.

Self Respect is everything... Honesty-> serving the whole universe don't get struck somewhere.

Why whatever whenever
What
How

The Judo way to victory

The Judo way to victory. Use the power of the opponent to win. Don't do things under pressure. Acknowledge the force and make it your own.

The greater the problem, the easier it is to draw the attention to the basics... and to leverage it to become greater... stepping stones to success.

How the knowledgeful ones get trapped

The ignorant and the innocent are anyway caught up in the web of Maya. But the knowledgeful ones get trapped too. And the behaviour is still pretty much the same.

When there is

• time in hand, there is complacency, distractions & experimentations, lack of focus and then maya.
• no time in hand, there is busyness, slowly the attention & awareness flows away and intellect becomes tired... and then maya arrives
• victory, there is complacency, and then...
  
• defeat, there may be disheartenment and a cycle of self-sustaining and disempowering thoughts and maya is here to stay...

Its a fine balance to have a good stage no matter what... any extreme is debilitating...

The Only Vice...

Sometimes it seems so obvious. The only vice is laziness.

Truth is so obvious, it stares at me from everywhere. It is easy to recognise the Truth. And yet, to do as per the truth is a different game altogether.

When Truth is faced and yet it is not followed... that is Maya. Maya is illusion... going beyond what is visible... to face what is Truth.

If things were clear, then it would be possible to do whatever it took. And yet, while understanding is there, realization is still not there. Interesting game this.

The Stone Intellect

There remains a gap between understanding and implementation. It is a sign of the stone intellect. This is not deriding the self or insulting... it is just understanding what is going on.

Why am i still a stone intellect?
Which barriers must i remove?
What will allow me to be sensible again?

10.5 years... and yet a huge gap between understanding and implementation...both are increasing and yet the gap seems widening...

Realization power is a great thing. Must exercise it more...

Am i happy? Certainly. Could i be happier? Certainly.
Am i sad? No. Am i contented with where i am? No again.

The proof of stability

If i become very happy about some service that happened in some distant place... for that is a sign of the revelation...i am also likely to be disturbed if some disservice happens elsewhere...

Watching the drama detachedly is necessary. It is not optional.

Am i a gushing and rushing stream or a steady and stately river? Am i unpredictable - sometimes dry and sometimes in flood... or am i reliable and trustworthy?

Do i have steady and endless waves of enthusiasm on the surface during interactions and maintain unbroken calm at the very deep inside?

How stable am i? What is the proof of my stability?

When i give knowledge to someone, do i get carried away in the flow of giving the knowledge or do i see the relevance of serving the core needs of the soul? Do i give knowledge for completeness sake or do i give as appropriate for fulfilling the need of the other?

How mature am i? How dignified? How deeply self-aware?

Its all so subtle

Surrender is critical. If thoughts are running around about anything, it means detachment is missing. Pushing, speaking fast, trying to prove, emphasizing many times... is not really dignified behaviour.

The tendency to dominate, jumping to conclusions, the quest for over-achievement... not useful at all. And these are all subtle matters, for on the surface, these are not visible in a gross way. Yet, its easy to identify the overall stage. Like Baba says, i don't have to know what is in your heart... it is just clear to me.

The Signs of Maya... and then how the war is waged...

Maya comes in such a standard manner.

First there is some complacency about making good efforts...
Then there is some confident talking (in other words, "boasting")...
Then there is carelessness in terms of maryadas... not really all at once, but a single "innocent" carelessness
Then another...(Murli warning flashes in memory)
And another...
Some more frequently...(Murli warnings flash in memory)
And then a mistake...(Murli emphasis flashes in memory)
And another...
And yet another...
Dawning of a feeling of helplessness... ("You become so 'innocent' instead of master knowledgeful")
Giving up...
Massive mistake...
Utter repentance...
Honest admission in front of Baba...
Serious Introspection...
Immense power...
Recuperation and Joy again...
Maintain stage for some time...
Restart the steps once again...

* * *
The whole process slowly builds up strength and maturity... but its a slow process.

Busy-ness as usual

Why would i want to keep busy? Why would anyone?

Just to avoid negativity? Would i want to just keep busy, no matter what it is?

Or is it a medium of self-expression... to be what i am... to experience my reality... to fulfill my potential...to grow and bear fruit... to serve the world...

Contribution offers purpose, they say. But is it really contribution for contribution's sake? Because people are in need? Or is it because my nature is to contribute? That fulfilment comes to me when i contribute? Because... that is in tune with my nature?

And yet... raw busy-ness is tiring. The purpose needs to be clear. The meaning needs to be served. Then there is fulfilment.

We are human beings. Not human doings.

Or are we? Are we not souls? Playing many roles?

Put Off

Sis said... Dad is put off right now...

Dad said... Don't put off anything that can be done rightaway... be aware of the Truth and take the right decisions quickly... don't keep thinking...

Two Dads... Two different thought streams...

Another amazing thing... its so easy to do... and yet the awareness or even the aspect of remembering to do seems to be limited at times... amazing.

i have this one aspect confirmed: "Stone Intellect" is a lovely and perfectly apt description.

Surrender Continued...

Baba is a puppeteer... we are just puppets... but we should allow Him to make us dance... then the role becomes beautiful.

Humble, simple, surrendered, moulding, appreciative... aha the spiritual army at work... at the behest of the field marshall...

Surrender

The overwhelming percentage of thoughts, words and actions are unnecessary...
Staying in the unlimited and doing service through the mind is critical.
Student life is the best life...

What do i truly need? Baba & Murli... and these are mine already.