Right when its the peak of service for Rakhi... am flooded with office work. And soooo much work. And yet, i feel completely at ease. Enjoying myself.
i sense dis-ease in many. i sense that some are upset with me... and have that upleasant unrest within. And yet i feel comfortable with them. i look with regard, sometimes do not look either... but its more with concern for them than otherwise.
i sense loving feelings from some. Caring feelings... all of a sudden...and yet i feel detached. Not much attention goes there either. Regard yes... but that's about it. Here is a soul who has overcome some blocks...
There is much work to do... and yet there is no pressure... very interesting. Some jobs are unfinished, will not be finished... and yet there is no pressure. Remarkable.
There was a desire for sight-seeing. It pretended to ride on the back of the service opportunity. But yea, at the heart there was this slight desire. And when i faced it and moved away, it went away too. What a relief! Thank you Baba.
The unlimited intellect. Truly considering the overall picture. Very interesting insights...
And all this after a series of storms. The hammer is needed and the chisel too... for the idol to be created. And yet, when the storm hits, the soul is so sullenly non-chalant. Don't care attitude. It feels like heresy.... And yet that is the reality.
How much bad karma must i have accumulated by now in this lovely birth? And yet, no matter how much i understand... as long as i do not realise it, its still called Maya. That's a saving grace... and yet no excuse for foolishness.
i think i am fed up of Maya... i always think so, just before the next storm hits home. Some people are born optimists... (and i hope that stays that way until victory reigns forever).
Baba, i owe you a lot of remembrance...
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