I Enjoy what life offers...

'I Enjoy what life offers, knowing my needs will be filled as surely as the tide flows in...'

- What a lovely blessing to a spiritual rose. Thank God for everything... but most of all for being chosen as an instrument.

An Instrument of God. What a privilege!

And by the way 6 days remaining... do what you will but the time is moving on...

The river Hades

The river Hades... or the 'Vishaya Vaitarni nadi'...

Vices rule the soul completely... it is sunk in the quagmire. At the surface all looks ok... but with further examination, everything is steeped in vice.

For example: Lack of concentration... could be due to:
Impatience, Immaturity, Greed - wanting too much achievement in little time, insecurity, desire to be seen as good (name and fame), ego, lust, fear of failure, head rather than heart being used, 'i know it but can't accept failure' attitude, attachment to projected image, lack of depth/interest in topic, lack of faith?, forgetting the main goal, possessiveness, boredom, lack of attainment, desire for instant gratification etc.

Yet concentration is easy to achieve too.

Impossible either ways...

Something to think over... if we look at the journey ahead to the destination, it looks impossible... if we look at the journey we covered from our start, that also looks impossible. Sheer magic...

Worthless shells and Invaluable Diamonds

Life today... like worthless shells... crores abound... and if one is gone, who cares?
What a dismal state of affairs...

And then a life worth diamonds... one that is instrumental in turning the world around...in transforming the lives of everyone... of giving each one what that one wants... an invaluable life...

One catalyst that makes the change. Wah Baba... you are a wonder. You are a magician.

Get rid of Ego

Oh what a waste of time this ego is...

Listen to alternate viewpoints
Be willing to go with the flow...
If i don't have a reason to have a strong opinion... i don't have to have one...
Respect is so necessary
Patience - even more essential..
Commenting upon negatives/faults should be done only with the concerned, and then too politely, briefly and supportively...
Preparation is also essential... what do i need to do?
Analysis can also be big Maya... Time for remembrance is lost...
Just experience based on knowledge - that is all that is important...
The world has so little value... very little time needs to be devoted to it... and yet the actual resource consumption is mind boggling...
Comments, criticisms, justifications... oh the waste of time due to ego...

The Shield

'The Shield is Drama', Dadi said. 'If you get scared, you forget to use your shield... and then you ask why, how and so on...'

You are the spiritual army...

What matters?

Whatever my role... it does not matter... All that matters is that i am valuable to God.

It is God's responsibility... not mine... to take me beyond. All i have to do is do what he says...

i have been invoked by God... sustained by him... blessed by him... my future is made. Nothing matters now... nothing... nothing...

Deep sense of contentment...

The height of forgetfulness

i forget my name, my form, family, home... i am completely in the here and now... And it is really the height of forgetfulness!

i'd rather stay in my eternal awareness and then play my roles...

Each version is worth lakhs, he said. You have been listening for so long...
O forgetful me! Remember, remember, remember!!!

What a divine comedy this is! i am enjoying every (well almost every) moment of it!

You can't dictate drama

You can't dictate drama.
Oh no, you can't. But you can dictate your responses to situations in the drama.

When my purpose is clear, every event is an opportunity to learn.

Let people be. The lever is within...move it and watch the world change.

The Om Shanti Awareness

It is not enough to be just aware of some word... but all the knowledge around it should come into that awareness too...

Like when i say Om Shanti, i should automatically become aware of my true nature, my abode, my role... everything...

Toys

i have to grow up and leave the old toys... only then can i truly get new ones to play with

I'm a mountaineer... and a bird too!

The current place and pace is fine... but i am a mountaineer... i have to reach the top and help all get there quick.

Unless i let go of the branches, i cannot fly. This branch is not important. Nothing great about it... Nothing on this tree is interesting either... It is a beautiful drama!

i do things not only because they should be done... but also because its a wonderful experience...

Staying within the situation and doing what is right naturally yields a lot of help... moving aside and trying to grow by avoiding, does not quite yield the same power. Yet, introspection is key.

The changeless one

I change constantly... and yet remain changeless... what a wonder I am!

See through the temporary...the illusory... See the eternal, the lasting...

#1 Rapid Effort Maker

Baba gave the blessing: "May you be the #1 Teevra Purusharthi (Rapid Effort Maker)"

Yes, the speed is good... but is it #1? Not yet.

'What is your focus on purusharth?', asked someone.

'To leave my body soon', said i.
'What would that take?'
'Focus on Soul consciousness... to be detached... to be beyond...'

Going beyond... the limited and the unlimited

The awareness of the eternal reality... then truly it is a feeling of universal brotherhood. Going beyond the limited and the unlimited.

Its Drama

'If a mountain collapses, how will it get re-created?"

Its Drama.

'The scriptures are there and will get lost... how will they get re-written?"

Its Drama.

Wah Drama!!!

Active Purusharth is necessary

Active purusharth is necessary to be aware of what is going on... and to be detached and loving...

Test papers will come and i will pass them. Its such a trivial point of knowledge but such a profound matter of application.

Respect and Self-Respect

Respect from the heart comes when i have true self-respect.

The Greatest Joy!!!

O lovely drama!!! The greatest joy in the world is to share your joys with the world! To be just yourself and open your heart and dance to heart's content.

Pure spirituality... what a symphony it is! Aha ha... aha ha...!!!

Values...

'Values are' a personal thing...

My life is as valuable as i make it...based on the value i put on various principles and ideals. What is important, the destination of results or the journey with values? The latter includes the former, but the former does not necessarily include the latter.

Effort is core. Details of the events are not...

Its fully worth it...

5000 years worth of waiting... but it is fully worth it.

Just to listen to those magnificent words... the Ocean of love... aha ha... aha ha... what tremendous satisfaction..

Music to the soul... O what a fortune it is to just listen to these sweet words full of wisdom... so refreshing, so enriching, so empowering...

Contentment was the word i started with today... and what more could a soul want in all of History but to experience these moments... truly whatever i wanted, i have got in ample measure and more than i could ever dream or even comprehend...

Thank you Baba... you have won my heart forever... tears of love... the meltdown has started.

And the Decisions are...

Its my life! Its my love!

1. 8 hours of self-improvement time till September 2005. This includes 4 hours of yoga/classes, 2 hours of study and 2 hours of churning
2. 2 hours dedicated to other services (articles, books, publications, sharings, wings)
3. 6 hours of rest in all.
4. Detached while working. i have to leave soon... focus on the task alone... completion orientation
5. Speech. Few, essenceful words. Zero pretense. Zero curiosity. All is good with the world. And let it be... just let it be. Conservation and accumulation of the power of thoughts, words and actions...

Awareness: How can i add significant value to everything?