Dedication

It is not enough to think about dedication. When one takes a decision to dedicate, completely new types of thoughts emerge. Amazing.

A step of courage - its action oriented. Not theoretical at all. And it makes all the difference.

When i can be me again...

{Can anyone figure this out ever without the context?}

Our set of relationships are so muddled. We call, in all earnest, the same person our father, our child, our husband, our sweetheart...gosh... how would we relate to the rest of the family now?

84 lives. 5000 years of relationships with different souls...family, friends, enemies... and finally brothers again. Oh what a relief! And here comes one soul right at the end of our journey and takes over all the relationships that he has been missing while he was blissfully asleep and the action was going on in this world. Some "guys" have all the luck.... 900,000+ souls jostling for attention... i'm reminded of an old song...by some soul somewhere... the name no longer matters...

"What would I have to do
To get you to notice me too
Do I stand in line
One of a million admiring eyes"...

And yet...
i'm not so sure if the rest of the song is true for me even now......
"I'm going crazy just to let you know
You'd be amazed how much I love you so
When I get my hands on you, I won't let go
This time I know it's for real"...

i do know it's for real... but hey... i'd be amazed if i knew how much i loved God... that old problem of facts vs. feelings... Oh dear... when would this old intellect ever get sorted out and then get out of the way? When i can be me again...