The nappy changer

God has a strange role.

We dirty ourselves and then cry. He comes and makes us clean. We smile. He goes off. We are back to sucking our thumbs.
A time later... we dirty ourselves and then cry. He comes and...

What does God want?

Me to be happy and be just like him.

What is he teaching?
Knowledge, yoga, dharana, service.

Why knowledge?
To know what to do and why and how... and become equal.

Why yoga?
To empower myself, purify myself... and become equal.

Why dharana?
To enjoy life fully... and become equal.

Why service?
To be fulfilled now and forever... and become equal.

Many layers

There are many layers of acquired habits in the soul. It needs to get cleansed.

Baba says, Yoga is the only way.

But I... I try out many different ways. It all works of course. Some help. Some don't.

His murli can be understood at many levels. The deeper I go in my journey to the core, I gain new perspectives on what Baba means.

I am at war... and I have a fundamental sense of self respect that remains unruffled... even when everything is lost.

There have been times in my spiritual life when I thoroughly failed the tests but never even realized what was going on... that even I had gone through a test and that I had failed. I was just having a good time. And much later... much much later it all seems so funny. Another layer just got uncovered.

I have nothing. I am nothing at the end of iron age. Baba has discovered an uncut diamond buried deep within all the dirt...in an ore. He is working hard. Really hard.

Wah Baba! What a game!

The personification of Maya... I never really understood it before(heh, as if I really do so now)... it is real too... as the soul is unaware of how each aspect of Maya is unveiled. It is unexpected as though coming from outside...as an external situation.

I live in my current context. The past is my present in the form of sanskaras and situations. It all seems external but it really is not. The future is what I do within my context. It is entirely my choice. It can only be my choice. After all, the future is my child, my creation.

Huh?

I've been there, I've done that
I've seen through the smokescreen
I've been through it all
I've been 'good' and I've been 'bad'
While being the same throughout

I've been a believer, I've been an atheist
I've sung his praise and swore against
I've felt powerful and I've felt helpless
I've hated the vices and been vice personified
While knowing that truth lies ahead

I've been careless, I've been attentive
I've been obedient, I've been disobedient
I've been enslaved to instant gratification
I've been committed to the long term game
While being a companion of God

I've been so simple. I've been so complex
I've been so foolish, I've been so wise
I've seen the big picture and I've seen the small picture
I've been the zero and the hero
While being an actor throughout

There is a time when the soul decides
enough is enough!
There is a time when the soul awakens
freedom now!
There is a time when the dawn breaks
all is clear!

And a little voice chips in
Aw, you silly goose. You keep saying that but you know what
you're stuck!
Another voice chips in
C'mon sweetheart, hurry up! I've been waiting for you! Let's fly!

And I wonder.
I am my friend and my enemy too
All else is just a game
The victory, the defeat, the joy and pain...
The attempts to 'leave a legacy'
on the ever shifting sands of time
What a funny joke!

I am my world
I am what I see
I am what I do
I am what I create
I am my companions
I am everything around me!

Oh, now I know why I got confused about omnipresence...
I brought God into my life... made him stay in my heart
Made myself invisible and became one with him...
I didn't know I would get so confused about all this...

Just a game, it is just a game!!!
Oh my goodness, its just a game!!!

Drama. Game.
What a wonder!
And God! What a wonder!!
And I!! Oooh, what a wonder!!!