Best Advice

The best advice I can get for my situation comes when I give advice to someone else in a similar situation.

And strangely enough... the situations are always similar. Only the degree and details are different.

Ego

This is perhaps the most blinding one. With any of the other vices, at least the soul is aware of the handicap and even when it feels helpless, there is a desire to overcome. However when ego (in the form of superiority complex) is in place, the feeling of 'I am right and others are all wrong' comes up. Personal mistakes become invisible. Even good qualities of others seem bad. Cynicism prevails. Even highly knowledgeable souls who are speaking all the right things can be so caught up that the disconnect between thoughts, words and actions is not at all seen. The problem seems to be all on the other side. 'And because of me, somehow the situation gets salvaged.'

Hmmm... come to think of it, the problem is that the power to discern and decide get lost.

Goal

When the goal is clear and compelling, there is intoxication and the momentum to follow through and complete. In the absence of a good goal or even a general aim, even small situations seem challenging. Once the aim is clear; energy, enthusiasm, persistence magically appear... and life becomes enjoyable.

Challenges

Any challenges are purely internal.

How I deal with any situation depends on how I manage my thoughts. That's it really.

Introversion

Silence is necessary. Detached. Witness consciousness. No expectations. Just need to determine my own role in the game. It is a drama and each one plays an accurate role. I am free to choose. Lotus like life.

Key Takeaways

Bhatti (Meditation Intensive) at Madhuban! What a beautiful time together! Everyone seemed to have taken a personalised set of attainments. Here are some inspirations I take on with me:

1. Keeping Baba as my constant companion... intimate connection.
2. Complete handover of the day, at the end of the day... from child to father
3. Check and maintain state of self respect throughout
4. Don't focus on or describe weak thoughts. Instead, move onto more valuable thoughts.
5. Victory is guaranteed.

Late one night, I had the experience of being the four armed one... a spinner of the discus of self realization, destroyer of bondages, living a lotus like life and blowing the conch with a sound of silence that reverberates in all of the three worlds (physical, subtle and the sweet silence home)...

Heart to Heart from the Hearth

Loving greetings from sweet sweet home Madhuban.

There is a Kumars bhatti (meditation intensive) going on here right now with some 6000 brothers participating from all over Bharat. Bhattis are very often transformational. There are moments of discomfort when there are some deep realizations and then there are liberating, uplifting moments where Baba makes the soul fly beyond.

I went through some intense transformational moments yesterday. There came a period that was so uplifting, that at the end of it I had a moment that was by far the greatest (so far) in terms of pure good wishes for every soul in the world. I felt connected to every soul in the world and had this loving feeling - ' I wish you were here to experience this'.

Late in the evening, I had the opportunity of a long conversation with one of the Dadis. I had shared the recent case study of experiences with her over email.Yesterday we met for some service and she brought up the topic and shared some insights. The way she shared (in essence below) was also an art.

First she verified that the situation that I had described was indeed over and that I was happily making intense efforts now. Then she said:

1. It is good that you felt inclined to share your experiences to caution others. I understand your intent.
2. It is not useful to share much about negative experiences. There are several aspects in play here.
   1. You are putting your thoughts into karma(action) and the effect becomes stronger.
   2. Others may decide to take things casually - 'Oh, that one also had challenges, so what's the big deal if I have some'
   3. People see things differently and may not understand your intent
   4. Some may gain and maintain a negative vision for you long after you have moved on   
   5. Other 'complications' can arise.
3. Keep such sharings very essenceful when you feel that you must share and that others will take benefit. Brahma Baba was open and also used to talk about storms but was always essenceful.
4. In case you do encounter any challenging thoughts in the future, do not describe them. Move onto more useful thoughts.

Dadi then shared several experiences from the service field and from her current activities. While the details are a bit personal to her, the essence was an example of loving good wishes as well as deep respect.

Today morning, one our brothers (also in our mailing group) took me aside gently and lovingly said, you know, I feel its good to share points, but not about your shortcomings. Share them with Baba or with Dadis. I thanked him and shared about Dadi's comments from yesterday. He said, aha, my line is clear!

So, there it is - some general guidelines for your consideration. Hope this is useful.

Yesterday was a day full of insights. I was lost in Baba's love and there was a big clearing happening within. And I saw so much beauty and benefit through all the experiences I have been having. The silent witness stage is powerful indeed and has been very handy in the previous episode. I've been learning soooooooo much over the last few days - it's wonderful!

Achcha. With lots of love and good wishes...

Humbled, Honoured and Inspired

What can I say... I am humbled, honoured and inspired by the love and wisdom I read in all the mails sent in public and private.

How much nobility... how much humility... how much transparency... So much love. Each mail shows the beauty of character of the sender. And of course the silent family members who send sweet good wishes. Need I add that each murli reveals so many more aspects of the ocean of love? I am grateful to Baba and my beautiful part in this sweet drama to be with all of you.

Integrity asked me to share the below mail to our senior instruments especially with whom I am engaged actively in service. In one case, I am also participating in forming a group that follow the highest code of conduct (maryada purushottam). The irony is not lost on me. But honesty keeps the soul light and easy.

I had not shared any details of the extent of the grossness of Maya because it seemed unnecessary. It is possible that other souls could consider it to be at a different level than it is... and I leave it to sweet drama. The mail was with the intent of having shared learning within the family and am inspired to see the beautiful responses.

When a karmic account is settled and the veil is lifted, it seems like a thing of the past, completely unconnected. Today Baba was speaking about crying. I remembered a time a few years back when after some discussion with the lokik family I wept and tears flowed profusely. I was taken aback because I was not feeling any sorrow and in fact there was no problem to have initiated this spate of tears. I watched on as I wept and my lokik parents were wondering what happened as it was very unlike my usual behaviour. After a few minutes it was all over but it was very strange. A few days later I read an avyakt murli where Baba said that when you cry as part of the drama and karmic settlement but do not feel any sorrow, you are playing the part of a hero actor. I was amazed.

In another murli Baba said that dark clouds of Maya will come and go, but the sun shines on. In my case, the sun did get affected but continued to shine. As of now, some of the dark clouds have cleared and the clear beams of sunshine are visible from between the dark clouds.

I have learnt many lessons from this beautiful episode but one special personal learning is that being detached from the role keeps me free from suffering. Yesterday was Rakhi and Baba showered me with love and yesterday amritvela onwards we are back in each other's sweet loving company.

A Case Study

I'm currently going through some experiences that's a good case study on Maya's modus operandi (way of functioning). Perhaps you may relate with your experiences or be aware of what might come your way too.

A couple of weeks ago, my spiritual efforts were at an all time high and my stage was flying higher than ever. Everything seemed effortless and beautiful. Baba's love kept me full of boundless energy. Complex problem situations that had my colleagues in despair became very easy to transform into delightful experiences for all. Finally that elusive goal of sustainable high stage looked within reach. And I took a valiant step of courage - Baba, I will finally fulfill my promises and get to the final goal. I fixed a date, set the goal, charted the plan and then was fully mentally prepared for moving forward no matter what.

In a remarkable turn of events, within a few hours, massive storms with giant tidal waves of negative thoughts came lashing in. Negativity rapidly advanced from thoughts into words and actions. I was strangely unmoved. Thoughts came in from all directions in all kinds of ways. All the vices were visibly and strongly present. Lust, anger, greed, ego, attachment, jealousy, tiredness, physical pain, stress, fear, distractions, time wasters... some challenges I had not encountered in spiritual life so far started appearing... and each area where I had failed several times before came up very powerfully and I failed yet again. But, I just did not feel bad at all. I continued on as though nothing had happened. When I was called upon for service, everything would subside and the stage would be beautiful and loving until the service was completed and then the issues would come right back. Fascinating.

I was failing but I did not feel bad about it. Then the next level of attack. At amritvela, I would be thinking and planning. No conversations with Baba, no deep stage of yoga... and very soon no yoga at all. Not even good morning. I would get up on time, sit in Baba's room and then just think what I wanted to think. I noticed what's going on but felt very unconnected. Having yoga seemed very unnatural. I was peaceful, even cheerful. The stage was ok and yoga seemed artificial. 'Aha, I'm back into atheism!', I thought. And then continued on with my thoughts. During murli, my thoughts would tune in and out. I was multi-tasking. 'Oh yes, that's true', i would think in response to a point and then go on into my own reverie of planning and thinking... and then catch the next point that was coming along. 'I know all this stuff', I would think... 'Aha, this is maya! I know, I know and that's fine...'

While having food, I would give drishti without any feelings and then eat on without any yoga at all. I would maintain all the maryadas without actually following any in principle. But I did not feel I was being a hypocrite or that I should stop following these maryadas. It all just felt OK. Somewhat like brushing teeth or taking a shower. Nice, useful and on autopilot. In fact after some particularly nasty negative thoughts, I loved taking extra time washing other's plates and getting rid of the garbage and cleaning up the whole area etc. It felt very nice and accurate to be doing karmayoga... actually karma with loving values but no yoga with God.

I was observing how my spiritual efforts had completely disappeared. I was close to Baba without any love. I felt he was just nearby but I did not want to have a chat. I was at peace. The negative and waste seemed to belong to another person, unconnected to me. And love for Baba seemed unnecessary. [What a funny way of looking at it!]. I was continuing to do well. The stage was in control when I wanted it to be in control. And I would let the horses loose. The senses would run amok in all directions. Sight, sounds, smell, taste and touch were all hyper activated and excited. The world became very alive in an iron aged way. And I went through this new change with some stress but no regret. The whole body would get tensed up as though I was making a big mistake and then I would pay attention and relax and get free from the stress. I was using gyan to be Ok with what is considered not OK.

I noticed that Baba never let go - he would bring in beautiful relevant points in the murlis and I would nod in appreciation and say that's right, thanks you are so considerate... and then go on doing precisely what i wanted to do and very unconnected to gyan. And then it had to happen. The murlis became focused on other points and the gross storms all subsided as well. The stage became very peaceful and happy. The dreams were full of service and beautiful self efforts but my day time had no conscious attempts to serve and to improve in efforts.

Yesterday in the in flight entertainment programme I saw what was called the 'world's funniest videos'. The first one showed a little boy slowly climbing up a snow clad mountain slope trying to reach his father who was waiting for him a few meters above. As the little boy nearly reached the father's outstretched hands, he slipped, fell and slithered all the way to where he had started. The father kept watching on but the focus was on the child. This is not my idea of a funny video at all, but suddenly I can see the beauty and the joke and the irony of it all. It's all about me. The next video had a little boy sitting next to his mother on a bench and as she gets up, he slides off the bench and falls on his back. Very funny. Hmmm.

Today at amritvela and at murli, I was fully disconnected and aware. Today morning was a particularly powerful dream of service programme for executives atop the 100th floor of a building. We [I don't recall the companions] were discussing deep aspects of gyan as we were going up the lift when I woke up. As I sat at amritvela, I felt like a person who had not spoken to his spouse for a long while and somehow did not seem interested in having a conversation. I was wide awake and thinking about this strange life.

So that's where I am at. I feel at peace. Very clear about what's going on and yet not making any efforts at the moment. I thought I should share this experience with you. I feel fully lovingly connected with everyone and also totally disconnected with everyone. There is a witness within which is doing the action.

What are the next steps? I'll spend some time in long loving conversation with myself as I usually do after a bad brawl with Maya. Difference is, usually my stage is pretty bad after 'failure' but this time I feel very comfortable with everything. Denial? Not really. Acceptance? Maybe, but of a strange kind. Something I would not normally find acceptable.

So, yes, some solitude and then maybe I'll say hello and have a chat with my father, teacher and satguru. He is the Ocean of patience. He outlasts me completely. I have so much natural, intellectual love for him right now... [but none from the heart as it just doesn't seem to be relevant]

And oh yes, I do not look forward to any advice at this point of time. The murlis suffice. [What a rude soul and ooh what ego!!!] Please do send your loveful blessings and good wishes - they are always welcome and would be very handy now. Thank you from the heart for being part of my journey. I offer these strange experiences with love... as a co-traveller. Hope they are useful for you in some way academic or practical.

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Everything is accurate. Everything is all right. Everything is beneficial. Yes, even when it does not seem like it.

Unique Family

Today morning as I sat in the rental car and prepared to fly, I heard some prayers. They were addressing me and I was reminded that I am the son of Shiva.

It was a pleasant journey and all the while the songs invoked me and reminded me of my virtues, of the needs of the world, and requested me to be pleased enough to extend my help. No one around me realised what was happening...they didn't know me. I am still incognito. I am still discovering myself. I remembered my resolve - I am the embodiment of solutions, the destroyer of obstacles, the one who follows the most elevated code of conduct. Six months to go...

During the flight, I heard someone talking lovingly to his son. And I smiled. I remembered my own son. I had adopted him... or rather he had adopted me. He is a little bundle of love. Others wouldn't understand how I could love him. He does not have eyes, or ears, no limbs either. He stays silent all the time. But we connect through our thoughts. And we understand each other and share a love that others can't even dream of...

And then I remembered my partner. My smile broadened and I chuckled. A decade and a half of living together and we are still not formally married. The society was scandalized when they heard of my decision not to marry some woman and live a "normal" life. I spared them by not revealing my actual plans. I wanted to live with another male. We understood each other well. We loved and adored each other and I was happy (well, most of the time), to do what he wanted me to do. He is the fussy kind - he tells me daily how much he loves me and how he wants me to be a better person (sigh!) and that I should remember no one else even in my dreams... oh he is very possessive. He is actually convinced that it is in my own best interest that I should stay loyal and faithful to him. I know its true, but I have a little independent streak remaining in me that gets me into trouble every now and then.

He stays at home while I go to work and earn for our livelihood. He watches me with lot of love as I do the daily chores and I share what I am thinking. Sometimes when I get involved in my work and forget to give him the doting attention that he expects, he reminds me in some way or the other. We sit together to have food and he expects me to offer him the first morsel. Ah true love! But then I often get lost into my own thoughts after that... and when I am in that mode, he also turns his attention to "other important jobs".

I must confess I haven't been fully faithful. I still have (well had until yesterday) an ordinary sense of awareness of myself. I am a bit familiar with him and don't always respect his wisdom. I mean I do respect him, but I sometimes end up doing my own thing anyway.

He is a consultant in the truest sense. He sits at home most of the time and listens carefully to what's going on in the world. Then he gives recommendations on what to do and why. He never ever actually does anything. He told me once that he had never studied a thing. He is just eternally smart. Every once in a while he goes to deliver a lecture.  He has an adoring fan following and I can hardly get to meet him in person then. I just sit at a distance and soak in the love...and enjoy how everyone loves him.

He told me once - It's not enough to tell me I love you. You have to prove it by becoming my equal. I want you to be my partner in the truest sense and then... then I will take you to my home and I will make you the queen of the world (ok, you can be the king if you want, he said) and the world will be heaven...you will never know any wants. Yes darling, I replied. I will prove it provided you help me. But of course!, he said. I am here for you. Now and forever.

Sounds so much like a fairy tale doesn't it? But I know him. I know he means every word. And besides, I would die to be like him. That's what I need to do... die. Die from old ways of living. Die from ordinariness. Die from the past. Die alive. And design a whole new way of living. Hand in hand with God.

Being Heliocentric

Moving away from the iCentric world is the next step.

Its about transcendence. So far it's been - whatever I see... is me.

Now it's - whatever I see... is you... for you have made me like yourself.

It is your vision, your thoughts, your ideas, your creation... you you you...there is a mark of you everywhere!

Aha... now that age old confusion in the world makes perfect sense.

The nappy changer

God has a strange role.

We dirty ourselves and then cry. He comes and makes us clean. We smile. He goes off. We are back to sucking our thumbs.
A time later... we dirty ourselves and then cry. He comes and...

What does God want?

Me to be happy and be just like him.

What is he teaching?
Knowledge, yoga, dharana, service.

Why knowledge?
To know what to do and why and how... and become equal.

Why yoga?
To empower myself, purify myself... and become equal.

Why dharana?
To enjoy life fully... and become equal.

Why service?
To be fulfilled now and forever... and become equal.

Many layers

There are many layers of acquired habits in the soul. It needs to get cleansed.

Baba says, Yoga is the only way.

But I... I try out many different ways. It all works of course. Some help. Some don't.

His murli can be understood at many levels. The deeper I go in my journey to the core, I gain new perspectives on what Baba means.

I am at war... and I have a fundamental sense of self respect that remains unruffled... even when everything is lost.

There have been times in my spiritual life when I thoroughly failed the tests but never even realized what was going on... that even I had gone through a test and that I had failed. I was just having a good time. And much later... much much later it all seems so funny. Another layer just got uncovered.

I have nothing. I am nothing at the end of iron age. Baba has discovered an uncut diamond buried deep within all the dirt...in an ore. He is working hard. Really hard.

Wah Baba! What a game!

The personification of Maya... I never really understood it before(heh, as if I really do so now)... it is real too... as the soul is unaware of how each aspect of Maya is unveiled. It is unexpected as though coming from outside...as an external situation.

I live in my current context. The past is my present in the form of sanskaras and situations. It all seems external but it really is not. The future is what I do within my context. It is entirely my choice. It can only be my choice. After all, the future is my child, my creation.

Huh?

I've been there, I've done that
I've seen through the smokescreen
I've been through it all
I've been 'good' and I've been 'bad'
While being the same throughout

I've been a believer, I've been an atheist
I've sung his praise and swore against
I've felt powerful and I've felt helpless
I've hated the vices and been vice personified
While knowing that truth lies ahead

I've been careless, I've been attentive
I've been obedient, I've been disobedient
I've been enslaved to instant gratification
I've been committed to the long term game
While being a companion of God

I've been so simple. I've been so complex
I've been so foolish, I've been so wise
I've seen the big picture and I've seen the small picture
I've been the zero and the hero
While being an actor throughout

There is a time when the soul decides
enough is enough!
There is a time when the soul awakens
freedom now!
There is a time when the dawn breaks
all is clear!

And a little voice chips in
Aw, you silly goose. You keep saying that but you know what
you're stuck!
Another voice chips in
C'mon sweetheart, hurry up! I've been waiting for you! Let's fly!

And I wonder.
I am my friend and my enemy too
All else is just a game
The victory, the defeat, the joy and pain...
The attempts to 'leave a legacy'
on the ever shifting sands of time
What a funny joke!

I am my world
I am what I see
I am what I do
I am what I create
I am my companions
I am everything around me!

Oh, now I know why I got confused about omnipresence...
I brought God into my life... made him stay in my heart
Made myself invisible and became one with him...
I didn't know I would get so confused about all this...

Just a game, it is just a game!!!
Oh my goodness, its just a game!!!

Drama. Game.
What a wonder!
And God! What a wonder!!
And I!! Oooh, what a wonder!!!

Joy beyond the senses

Every sense provides some level of joy. Every habit some benefit. When I ignore the limited and go beyond, there is incredible joy. There is maturity. There is wisdom. There is self respect. When I see beauty or hear a melody or taste sweetness or smell fragrance of feel softness...there is a charm in it. A feel good factor. It is just the packaging. Its just the container.

The content is meaning. It is true value. Once I have seen through the packaging, I can acknowledge its true worth because I am not limited by it. I am free.

Imagine a point

A tiny tiny tiny point. As small as can be imagined... and then much smaller still.

If you compare the size of the human body with the vast expanse of the universe... kind of relates to the size of the soul with respect to the size of the body... but of course that's not true... the soul is non material...

How small I am! If the soul had eyes, I would see protons/neutrons and what have you as gigantic suns... with the electrons forming giant solar system around it...

And yet I control this massive kingdom which is highly interconnected with passageways and roadways carrying information, energy, food, oxygen, waste...with trillions of living cells participating in the functioning of the kingdom.

When the king is upset, the kingdom is upset. Storms rage. When the king is pleased, the kingdom is pleased. Imagine! This tiny little thingy... what a powerhouse! The ruler of matter.

And then of course, that sweet point. The sweetest one. Absolutely adorable. Just benevolent. Nothing but love. Totally pure hearted. The one who holds an ocean of all virtues within... a m a z i n g!

The magic factor

What would you feel if someone else does all the work and praise is showered upon you?

What would you feel if in spite of all your protests and redirecting attention to the source, the praise comes back with even more generosity towards you?

What would you feel when the hidden server lovingly smiles with satisfaction at the scene...

The master is at work... and the puppet is on the stage. And everyone is enjoying the puppetry.

Baba you are not just the teacher. Not just the friend nor just the guide. You are everything! I know why we all got so confused about you. Whatever we spoke about you was true and false at the same time. You did do all the things we claimed, but we just stayed at a gross level and never did understand you... you are so beautiful. You are magic!

The Report Card

I had taken a six month sabbatical (break from work - if you prefer that) for some spiritual research, writing, self development and service. It got extended by over a month and today at Amritvela I was reviewing my report card. Here are some learnings:

Summary

1. Very enriching and worthwhile experience
2. Lots of profound experiences
3. Distractions galore and maya too
4. Did not complete even one key goal to satisfaction
5. Excellent results in unforeseen areas

Some Details

1. Very enriching and worthwhile experience
   The biggest takeaway is that it is easy and invaluable to create time for myself and do that which is close to my heart. I owe it to myself to live a life by choice rather than through canned/standard responses.
   
   The key driver for the sabbatical was one exploratory question - God is here and we are together... what am I doing with my life?
   
   I feel Baba provided me deep experiential answers to that question and to have this personal space in time just to be available and listening was worthwhile.
   
   
2. Lots of profound experiences
   I have shed the most loveful pearls as tears, 'world changing' moments that radiated power to the whole world, vivid clarity of purpose and vision of future, absolute unconditional equanimity (brief spells), joy beyond belief...experiences that were deeper, longer and more widespread than ever before in this brahmin life
   
   
3. Distractions galore and maya too
   Service and the love of contribution kept me sidetracked almost all the time. Opportunities would come that I could not say no to... and as it is, I am poor at saying no to service opportunities (I still feel it is by choice than compulsion). I said no to service more times than ever before and had plenty of chance to peacefully listen to complaints in that regard.
   
   At the end of the sabbatical I find that in spite of having got great advice from many yogi and gyani souls, I did not make enough time for yoga, knowledge or dharana. Service just took over.
   
   Maya is illusion. And all said and done, it was the overall winner. Don't even ask. But i'll share some key things as it may be useful. Was soundly beaten several times especially by lust and ego. Maya's strategy (for me) seems to be as follows: a. Useful opportunity for service arrives. b. Get engrossed. c. Forget key purusharth goals. d. Attacked when distracted. e. While writing chart (sheepishly) - huh? f.Next day at Amritvela - Baba...I am really really sorry...
   
   
4. Did not complete even one key goal to satisfaction
   
   Two unfinished books, One unfinished spiritual research project, Many unfulfilled gigantic promises regarding stage, not even one day of quality yoga over 8 hours/day...
   
   Many many reasons, all seeming genuine... all surrendered to this, that or the other important or urgent or just 'one of a kind' type of service that needs to be done right now...
   
   
5. Excellent results in unforeseen areas
   Surrendered intellect (some say indecisiveness, procrastination and unwarranted external dependence) and 'go with the flow' approach went very well. Equipoise and grace in chaotic circumstances, Love and unbelievable blessings from family, exposure to many many events, people, qualities, viewpoints, insights...
   
   It was far better than I could have planned for...

So there it is... the report card. The sabbatical is officially over... and in a sense it will never get over in this life for it has changed my life and outlook fundamentally.

Fill the Gap

If there is any gap, any challenges that you see in anyone's behaviour, become an all round server and fill that up even before anyone else notices any limitations. This is cooperation.

The Diamond Mine

It's a diamond mine here. Everything is in the raw form. It does not look appealing, but its a source of untold wealth! It is my job to refine, cut and polish the diamonds and offer finely designed jewellery to the world.

The world does not know about it, it is not able to discern - it just seems like dirt and pebbles. But I have seen it, I have found the treasure! I have access to it. To share it in a way that the world can take benefit - this is my contribution to the world.

Tears of Love

Just before morning class today... it was flash back time...15 years of loving sustenance by God. So much care. So much love. So much personal attention. Day by day, relentlessly chiseling away - the master sculptor at work.

It was just overwhelming. I have not had so many tears of love in a long long time. What a fortune! What an incredible fortune! What more can I possibly want in life? The only thing that remains... is to give a return of this incredible gift. To be a worthy child. To be one who reminds all of their Father.

Angelic life

The walk of an angel
The talk of an angel
The look of an angel
The smile of an angel
The sweetness of an angel
The compassion of an angel
The detachment of an angel
The sense of belonging to all... that's an angelic life

My Gift to God

The reins of my life.

Ultimately...

Ultimately all the fanfare will die down. The hue and cry, the pomp and show, the whys and wherefores...Ultimately it does not matter what went on and what you did...the name, fame and acclaim... the trials and tribulations... the wars and scars... no...nothing matters.

I will exit the body and silence will prevail. And then, I am accountable to myself. Was I true to myself? Did I use the insights God gave me? It is a game. Victory and defeat. And then ultimately, even that doesn't matter...nothing matters. Its a drama.

Distraction IS Maya. I forget Reality.

Amazing Amritvela

Lovely experience during early morning meditation on how the soul rides the body and engages with the surroundings. Completely distinct, naturally peaceful... ah, the joy of living!

Love in disguise

Yesterday someone was venting. Deeply anguished, frustrated, even angry at the sorry state of affairs and of a worthy cause being deeply violated by incompetence and negligence.

The pain was visible and prolonged. Some thoughts that came up:

1. This is love in action... that cannot bear to see an honourable cause being laid waste.
2. Going into the details is not a solution. There are reasons and justifications for everything.
3. The cause is not lost. I can and will make a difference.

Purity is Power

To be free from selfish desires
To be free from short-term thinking
To be free from negativity, waste and ordinariness

To be full of good wishes
To be benevolent and altruistic at all times
To unconditionally see and work with the inherent goodness of all human beings

This is purity - a powerful transformational change agent.