Expansion

The passion for knowledge and wisdom is insatiable! Read read read, churn churn churn...and feeling helpless that I cannot ingest and digest everything all at once!

What for this expansion? What drives this quest? Truth is at the core. I have undoubtedly had what I am seeking now with such gusto. Everything seems familiar and natural. And yet, its not outside. When I went into silence, the essence was there... waiting calmly.

The desire to be complete and full... right now... its intense. And yet, it cannot be achieved by reading alone. In fact, it cannot be achieved by reading at all. He says, forget all that you have read and focus on me. I teach you the essence of it all.

The quest for more has had me in its grip today. Its very tempting to know more. Just a little more. Just one book a day... today it was philosophy and about traditions in society...

Actually this too is lust. Intense desire. It is not normal. It is not balanced. It is disempowering... how counter-intuitive. Now, to get back to the seed stage in a second.