Hours and hours

I have spent hours and hours (and hours and hours) trying to figure out myself. Especially the last two days have been amazingly intense. Its like being on neutral and slamming the 'pedal to the metal'. Lots of revving and no movement.

I have probably invested more time in introspection than in any other thing in the last 14 years (including any office work or service project)... this humming is constant in my life.

So what is the outcome? I really don't know. Lots of glimpses of glory. Lots more understanding. Sometimes it all seems so simple and elegant. At other times ever so complicated.

And he says - these are such childhood toys. Go beyond! Shine forth and transform the world! You are the greatest...

Silence is truly the key. Let me go back into it now...