i am unaware of myself and my part... at the moment. Baba and drama are moving me closer to the yagya, using my time in strange ways to make it fruitful... exposure to many classes, elders, the environment... its all mine... a gold mine of opportunities... all unasked for, unsought for, in some sense.
There was a longing to know the truth... and there it is clean and clear in front...
So many blessings. So much love. Such large heartednes.
Giving is essential. It is not only about knowing and understanding. As i give, i enjoy and i grow. Dry R&D is not as interesting.
Articles, mails, words, vibrations... giving is everything.
i usually 'give' better in situations that need it. Voluntarily 'giving' doesn't work in Baba's yagya. Its not choice based. Whatever Baba wants, whenever he wants...
i am in a bhatti.
Strangely contented. i am a puppet, an instrument for use. But i'm not yet self aware and constantly blissful.
i am not clear of the next steps forward.
It doesn't matter what... i'm there... where i wanted to be.
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