I am very uncertain about what emotion I am experiencing... the body certainly reacts in fairly consistent manner.
Sometimes there is pain in some spots in the middle back muscles. This is usually when I am having one of the following: [under pressure, overwhelm, uncertain, scared, trying to control, being rebellious, feeling guilty]. I'm not sure which one I feel, but I can argue that one or the other is probably happening.
Sometimes there is intense lower back pain in the bone - but this is rare and am not sure if it is to do with the posture or actually due to an emotion. Sometimes there is stiffness in the neck - I think this is perhaps due to abuse of the neck while sitting in a bent position for using the laptop or the blackberry.
Once I had a rare heavy headedness for sometime - it seemed like due to the cold but was also thinking intensely at that time. Learning seems to make me interested and relaxed. Being evaluated gets the back tense again...hmmm...
Intense research brings back pain... realised and got off it...no pain while watching Lionking trailer video on the net. Enjoyed it much... reminded me of myself!
Sometimes there is pain the in the lower ribs. No clue why.
I sit in a funny posture with weight put on my left elbow resting on the armrest of the chair. I'm sure that's not a good posture but it feels comfortable under certain emotional states.
Some pain in the feet. Some in the toes at times. Heaviness in the chest - actually not heaviness but as though some weight it put on it... coughing as I thought of this... hmmm...
The body is my barometer for sure and I LOVE researching - observing myself and recording all this. Pity I don't understand the language yet. I'm not formally meditating but I sure am having fun!
Am I reading too much into this emotional connection bit? Some instant coughing! It's funny :)
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